Okay i masterbate alot like everday sometimes 2 and 3 times a day. I had a sex partner for a year when i lived on campus but now i don't have a partner. Last night i had sex with a guy i have only known for a day, it was my first time meeting him. He is alot older than me too. I don't know what to do. I was sexually abused when i was younger and i feel like because of that i'm a more sexual person. i don't really like sex, but at the same time it feels good. i don't know what to do. i have all these sick and perverted thoughts in my head. i think i have a problem saying no to guys and i get taken advantage of. and then i get confused becuase i don't know if i wanted it or not or if i deserved it. any advice for me?

Kay,

You need counseling. Lot of women who were sexually abused feel like you do. On one hand they like sex and want to have a "nice" sexual relationship with someone - and on the otherhand they feel like they are used goods and sex is meaningless and why not have sex with anyone.

You need to see a counselor who specialize in sexual abuse issues. The college counseling office you went to could probably recommend someone you could go to. They are familar with this problem and will know who locally can help you.

You can also go to your local Planned Parenthood office as they have very good counselors that can help with this too.

Another possibility is a local Woman's Center.

If you have trouble finding somewhere - post your address and I wil find somewhere near you. No one will see your address but me.

Susan

Dear Kay ,i am new to this site amd after years of being in a abuseful relationship find myself free to do things sexually,trouble is being a woman i feel confused because after masturbating intensely or experimenting(which i never did)i get confused and feel (well i dont know what i feel).I am wondering am i normal and want to talk to others coz like Susan says counseling or talking is a good start but its hard to arase memories and i sometimes feel guilty afterwards whan really its my life so if you wanna chat go on chat on Susans site and share our thoughts and try to get by with a bit of help(sotry its a long letter...Sparkle.