i had sex with a guy last night that i had only know for a day. we used a condom of course, but i think i may have a problem. i was abused when i was younger and i think that has a big effect on me and my sex life. i masterbate alot and after wards i feel dirty and bad. i immediatly shower and wash my hands. i do the same after sex too. i want to stop feeling like this. i want to be able to enjoy sex, i'm old enough to. but i want to be more careful and protect myself. please tell me what is wrong with me.
Kay---I'm posting both your messages because they say thinngs a little different. What you are doing is very natural for a young woman who has been sexually abused. When you wash you are trying to rid yourself of bad memories. The memories aren't going to go away - so you have to learn how to deal with them. Counseling is what will help. Please try some of the organizations I mentioned in the other email. If you need further help - or just want to talk about what you are experiencing please continue to write. It helps to talk. I'l be here to listen.