I went into the hospital for a rectal exam (a lot more) and all is well! I really swallowed my pride (big step for me) and spoke with a physical therapist who was married to a quadriplegic ...we got to talking and it just came out. I said "I know anything about retrograde ejaculation or phantom pleasures?" She didn't hesitate and said (my husband was very private but experienced all that!" We didn't get into the confusing aspect/treatment of it for me (all the details) not really ...knowing that I'm definitely not alone is such a relief. Prior to this I watched my erection bounce while the other nurses were around and it was horrible (combined with the physical problems that sent me there). Real cute nurses were covering me up and when they left the room I went back into pretty serious confusion (even though the phantom feeling didn't fully develope. I was masking my other problems with sexuality, etc. I still can't believe my urethra was wide-open and I still was in disbelief that nothing was seeping out ...about the time I had enough, she ranged my leg's and the topic came up ...perfect timing by God I'm sure. This was nothing like at home, but I still feel like a boulder has been lifted off me. I wanted badly to ask about relief/suggestions but they're just wasn't time ...the ball is rolling anyways ... Thank you again for planting the seeds I needed to accomplish all this. Take good care-Philly

Excellent news. Keep up the good work.

Pretty cool to find out I am not alone anyways, because that's how I felt. Still this is MY BODY and it does affect me differently than others. Have to admit you were right all along. I still can't believe I am actually coming though when I think about it-cool way beyond words can explain! I feel more like a man and less like a freak ...others don't understand I'm sure, but it really doesn't matter. If they don't understand I will just tell them I am coming and that's that-if they have a problem (Goodenough)-it's not my worry...I am getting off (not fall extreme) just thinking about it ...later, Philly