for over 30 years i lived, i thought, as a normal man. then over time, i started thinking graually that my life would have been better iof i had been born a girl. this feeling has gained in intensity and is very strong now. my failure has convinced me that my feelings were correct. i do not cross dress, nor am i interested in men. i have not at any time felt that i sahould transform. my age and other factors also would not let me change, even if i felt a desire to do so. whenever i see women these days, i feel envious that am not one. wish i had been. i fantasize often i am a woman and it gives me some relief.
wonder if anyone has had similar feelings and thjoughts.
Mohini
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