I was busy today worrying about my father, he has taken very ill these last couple of days...he's very white, his voice has changed, has a fever, diarhea, vomitting, stomach pain and aches and pains in his body...he's getting very weak but he will not go to hospital, he wasnt able to eat or drink till tonite, I spent the evening with him and I manged to get him a cup of soup with some crackers...mom said he kept it down, that was two hours ago.
I am VERY scared, the last person I saw that had that look, was my grandfather and he passed away about 3 days later...he's so pale, I have to turn away at times and cry off to the side...he's my daddy! You probably think I sound like a spoiled brat...of course I was...I can't stop the guilt, the stress from the mva pain and crohns past money problems, sometimes I got pretty cranky with him, oh God I'm crying again! I have to clear my concious a few weeks ago daddy pulled a prank on me...I was terribly stressed and I got EXTREMELY ANGRY, I said terrible things to him, I just couldn't shut up! I went in mom's room and talked with her and as I was leaving I noticed him sitting in his computer chair with tears down his cheeks, well that just about killed me, I collapsed in moms room and couldn't stop crying...i went to the livingroom and tried to joke with him, he wouldn't look at me...i put my hand on his shoulder and said I'm sorry daddy, i didn't mean anything I said, my nerves are so bad I dont know what Im saying and I started to cry...he sort of grinned and then nodded ok...hes never been sentimentel. I always get cranky especially with his computer, hes very new and ALWAYS needs help, well I've been selfish...oh man I hate all of this crying! Please, God give Daddy a helping hand and don't take him from us, not yet...I love him so much.
I know he feels lonely...he only has me,hubby my boys and his mom and her man...mom is helping him alot too...but I KNOW him, he's hurting...he said to me tonite that he thinks he's dying...you can imagine how hard it was to keep from crying! I told him it could be the flu, and if it is he got it from me! More guilt for annie.
Please, pray for daddy! OMGosh, my kids, they will suffer terribly too, they are very close to their Poppy! They can tell he is sick. I have to go dear friends, its getting late, I need to try to sleep...I know I won't though...again please pray for him!
Annie.
Sorry that your Dad is sick. The
flu is in full swing here, this is
stomach flu. Make sure he has fluids.
And if he keeps throwing everything back
up call the drug store and see what they
have that is over the counter that can stop
it. Remember lots of fluids!!!!! Lots.
Love you Annie and I will keep you and yours
in my prays.
Annie, you have no reason to feel guilty , and your father knows you are not well .
More than likely , he was sad because he was worried for you ! More so than himself.
Annie , Dads are strong, stronger than we will ever know !
his little girl , now a woman who is struggling due to a car accident ,, Your Dad knows it is not your fault , because he knows in his heart you will always be his little girl . forever my friend.
Dont beat yourself up Annie , please , you are too smart kiddo , to allow PAIN to interfere with our LIVES ! You know the mask we talk about here .. ! How we have to be strong for EVERY ONE !!!
Annie , my Dad was my ROCK !
Annie , fluids are the best if its just the flu ... but he must be keeping the fluids down ... !
Annie , sometimes with the help of family members you can
Reassure Dad , lets go to emergency to get checked out and then we will bring you home !
If the doctor allows it .. but you dont tell him that .
HOpefully Annie its just the flu and your Dad recovers GOD SPEED !
Annie , you and your family are always in my thoughts and prayers .
Please keep us updated .
gentle hugs ................................... big squeeze ! gently of course .
This message has been edited by reds_son on Jan 12, 2008 3:55 PM
Caa did u have the flu yet? its quite a doozy one here...unfortunately the older folk aren't doing well with it, some have not made it thru...thats why I worry so much about him!
Hi Jenni! Its very nice to meet you! Sorry I didnt respond to your to your introduction...too much on my plate, AGAIN! Its the best thing in the world being a Daddy's girl, when we get older we tend to forget...the countless grins and nods while I figure skated...the many trips to the store to get just the right smurf for dear annie...the support while attending college, he bought me my first business suit for work,,,and the horsing around on the beach...the list is endless!
Red, thank you so much for your thoughts...I know I panic and go running at the mouth, thats just how I deal with pain and sorrow...I think you are right...he was more concerned about me, I really needed to hear that friend! Sometimes the ROCK melts and we breakdown...I'll keep my head up and I'll plow thru this!
He still isnt well today, he looks so weak, I went to the store today got him some chicken soup and some gatorade, hopefully that helps him...he's just so scared, hes always been paranoid of death, mainly because his father died so young and unexpected! We are trying to keep his spirits up too.
I'll update you all as I learn them...thank you so much for the prayers, keep them coming guys!
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forever my friend.