Wow, looks like some old and new faces are appearing on here. That makes me happy.

I just saw my son off to his prom today. A group of his friends were all going out to dinner at a local restaurant. Tradition has it that most people leave the prom early and head for the beach resort which is about 1/2 hour away.

I am so worried. I was hoping he would stay at the prom. Much safer than hundreds of kids hitting the highway. I don't think I posted this, but his father passed away last month. And, like I told my son today, if he were to have an accident or anything happened to him, it would push me over the edge.

I'm dealing, but it's hard. My son is taking it pretty well. He said he wishes his dad could have been here to see him graduate. My daughter is taking it hard. Like she said-death is so final. She wishes she had spent more time with her dad; although, she did see him alot more this past year since her dad and I had gotten back together last May. And, she told me she was grateful to me for that because before that, they didn't see each other for a couple years. She said she has fresh memories of him now-like times he spent playing with her daughter, Kali-whom he adored. She felt sad for her brother because none of his kids will ever know him.

You see, he had a disease too. Not the kind of disease that we all have-but all the same, it causes a great deal of pain to the person who has it and to those loved ones who can only stand by and watch helplessly as it takes over the body, mind and spirit. Like whiplash, there is no cure for it. If you are strong enough, there are steps you can take to control it; but, if you give up, you will surely die from it. My daughter has the same disease and most likely my son has it, but unlike his sister, I haven't seen any symptoms in him yet.

My husband had an alcohol addiction. He died April 1, 2009 and was only 52 years old. His daughter, who is only 23, understands him more than anyone I think because she is battling the same "disease" and knows how hard it is to overcome. For 26 years, I thought-"if he really loved me, he would quit drinking" or "why does he do this to himself?" I was so naive. He wasn't drinking to hurt me or the kids or even himself. He just didn't have the will to quit.

I just have one more thing to say. It's so easy to get caught up in everyday life-working, kids, pain. You forget to do the easy things in life. Like tell your spouse you love them-even if you are angry with them. It doesn't cost anything and it takes little time to say it. No one knows how much time they have together-don't take it for granted that they will always be there. Keep the passion and love alive and be kind to one another.

Love and peace,
donnaC

Hello Donna , I am truly sorry to hear of your loss .
Sending my Condolences to you and your family .

Hugs : I'll always be here .

Red

Donna,
So sorry to hear of your Husband's passing.
I know it must be hard on your family. I
will pray that your daughter can over come
her addiction so she can enjoy her family.
And Wow your Son graduated!!! It does not seem
like he is old enough!! LOL
I will pray that things get easier as time
passes for your family.

CAC and RED for your kind words. People think that once the funeral service is over, it's done and over with and time to get back to life. It's so not that easy. He was not by any means perfect and we did have our problems; but, all the same, he was my companion-my friend and I will miss him always.

But, I try to concentrate on my kids and grandkids now. He would not have wanted me to cry over his death but to celebrate his life and remember the good he had in him.

Thank you again my friends,
donnaC