life can be so miserable so much that most of us feel like we might as well end it MOST of the time! (i think Torb mentioned that) i know guys, I know!!! and i'm not trying to downplay anyone's problems here, because they are real problems that are causing you guys a LOT of pain, but then there's this old punk rock ideal:
you've only got one life to live, so live it to the fullest.
plays into the whole DIY thing. i know it's rough guys, but we ARE alive, and there's nothing wrong with having a little fun. i think that ability is still in all of us.
Good luck and best wishes to all, I honestly hope all things work out for all of you.