I am really looking forward to celebrating this year, but then some of the indoctrination creeps back into my head, and today I have been wondering if Christmas has been ruined for me. I remember the closeness in my family. There was such a warm feeling towards others(not to say only at Christmas time) but for anyone who has celebrated you probably know what I mean. I always had a manger, sent out religious cards to those who were christians, and at least for me, felt close to God. There is one thing i would Like to mention that bothered me for a long time as a JW, but of course I would always try to push this thought far from my mind. Well here it goes(I have never told anyone this) but being raised as a Catholic and then going to other churches with my family while growing up I felt very close to GOD, but didn't feel as close to Him while being a JW! THAT IS THE TRUTH and I finally got it out! I have never been able to pinpoint exactly why, but I think it's because of the lack of love towards those of other religions and towards those who cannot live up to the standards of the society. Sometimes, I feel as if I have lost my easy-going anyone can talk to me personality and at other times I know it's still there. Well, just felt like sharing. I needed to get some of this off my shoulders!
Thanks for listening!!!!
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