It was dumb, but I tried anywayMarch 11 2012 at 5:08 PM
|DocT (Login DocT)|
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Most of you will just laugh at me over this.
I called someone I hadn't spoken to in 15 years or so. A dub. Just wanted to say I still cared, wished her family the best etc.
You can imagine how it went. As far as context goes, this is someone who is in her 60s now, a grandma, it's purely a friendship. But I genuinely loved her, and a few of her close friends, way back when.
Once the conversation turned to 'So how are you doing with Jehovah', I was honest but all the soft-pedaling in the world couldn't forestall the change in tone. There were only minutes until the hangup.
I have no capacity to be so false as to beg a quick reinstatement or lie about my df'd status. It would be utterly insincere and would ultimately do more harm than good. I guess I'm at a point where my fondest wish is to have the love I once did for my best friends; have it reciprocated, that is.
Is that so much to ask? Apparently so.
|March 11 2012, 7:28 PM |
I know what you mean.I would love to check in on some but I know it is pointless. Oh well life goes on....
Gave some cousins the same chance.
|March 22 2012, 10:31 PM |
We moved through my father's hometown to scatter ashes and I got in touch with some cousins. One branch seemed glad to see me, the other wouldn't meet me even to say "sorry your father croaked." We were never close, but I wanted to be the bigger man.