it is hard to know....

when the people will decide to be mean or rageful.

"i think best to decide what you can cope with."

if just knew when they would think something that am writing is going to make them think it is sarcastic or whatever else they think it is.... bad things that is...
it is so wierd... for have never had any bad things to say to anyone here, or elsewhere... nor have been angry at anyone online... have been hurt at times... but that is an internally manifested feeling... not external...
and then like that "someone"
(think that was the nick name of the person) who wrote "come back lilghostie" and then when did come back, they never wrote back...
totally was lost on that whole thing...
until someone emailed privately and told mineself that this person was being mean...
was wondering "really?", and then "why?"....
what did lg ever do to make them be mean...
that is the stuff that is hard to know anything about..
so when you say, be true to yourself, or hide...
and be ready for what is needed to be coped with...
itis hard to figure out what is going to come after...
what will be written... and even when read it, sometimes it is hard to figure out what it means..
like with that "someone" who said for mineself to come back.
after coming back, and saying to them 'here am'...
they never wrote back. maybe they never came back here yet...?
but then to get email telling mineself that am misunderstanding that person.. that they were not asking for mineself to come back here.. but were saying that to mean something which was mean..
dont understand what was mean about asking someone to come back, or what it could of meant if it didnt mean for lg to come back here...
but in all, even if had understood it to be something mean, had no understanding as to why they would want to be mean to mineself...
dont understand....

so it is hard to figure out what am prepared to cope with, because it is hard to figure out what willhappen once have said something or written something.

lg