What do they see?

Ok I volunteered at a special kids resource show today and it was intersting.

I've not dealt with ppl in a public setting since I last worked 10 years ago. I thought I was doing
really good! I had eye contact, not certain but I don't think I hunched up my shoulders, and I was
saying hello to ppl as I held the door open for them. (they had me hold the door open to help ppl
when they came in with supplies for their booth)I offered to carry things for ppl and I think I smiled.

So I don't know what it was that some picked up on. I wasn't having panic attacks and I was not
hiding yet some how they saw a difference.
I'm not complaining mind you. I just wish i could see what they see and how they see it.

I went over to the autism society table to get information from them.
She said, "we have many chapters of support groups for AS adults".
"I believe their is one right in this area." I didn't ask about support groups. All I had said was that I
had visited there web page before. We talked a little about their organzation, 3 times she
meantioned AS adult support groups. Then she said do you have a child dx AS? I said yes. But my
mind kept wondering how she knew about me?
what did she see? I've never gone for a official dx yet I've had many ppl dx me just by talking to me.
What is it I'm showing or saying? It was obvious this lady knew just by looking at me. Gosh I'm just
curious what she saw.

When I took my son for a dx 5 years ago the nuropsych. looked at me and said do you know
another family member with the same or similar traits as your son? I thought then said no. She
looked at me for a while and said are you certain? I knew I was different but I didn't think I was
spectrum back then. How do they know?

So back to the resource fair. As i walked around the women did to me the same thing women use to
do to me when I worked. They had this guarded stair like thing. I dunno like they don't like me just
from looking at me.

It's just weird to me. I thought that I had really improved a lot. Geez volunteering for something like
this is a huge step for me. Again I'm not complaining I just don't know what they see.

I don't actually have snakes for hair.