yeah, no crap. when people DO learn then they suddenly are shocked i can even make it through the day most of the time. like some of my friends who are in or were in the military, cuz they go through short bouts of having to stay awake on very little sleep and end up sleep deprived at times.. they all have different views of me than a lot of people around me who always get the sleep they need. ive always been this way though in the sense that i would sleep maybe 4 to 5 hours a night when i COULD sleep "normal" without fragmentation, and go to two different jobs and play in a band and party all night..and wake up and do it again each day.. and still keep a clean house and such...well.. as clean as i can tolerate hahah
what gets me still is the HH and sleep paralysis stuff. it really messes with my head. i "come to" from it sometimes just feeling totally depressed and dead inside and i hate it.
i keep trying to tell myself "at least you dont have a fatal disease like cancer or something" but at the same time, those people probably can make it to sleep once in awhile and somehow part of me is still jealous of them lol