Thanks, everyone. It sucks, but there are so many more worse things that could happen, ya know? That's how I feel today. Yesterday, I was pissed off at how unfair life is to give me something so stupid like an inability to be able to manage my own sleep without pills.
I started Nuvigil on Tuesday morning. The side effects are really quite awful, and at this point, I would rather go back to being tired and needing to take a nap than to feel nervous, jittery, and for once NOT be able to fall asleep at night. WTH. My doctor suggested I lower my dosage and give it a week for my body to adjust before giving up on this med. It's easy for him to say that. He's not the one who has to work and go to school while feeling like he's going to puke, faint, cry, and bounce off the walls all at the same time.
I can't exercise because I can't eat much right now for fear it won't stay down. I missed running today because it has been a way to relieve stress. Plus, even though in my mind I feel like I'm capable of running a marathon right now, stairs are proving to be difficult at the moment because I'm so tired and crappy feeling. It's really weird.
It's a one day at a time thing. Yesterday sucked, today's a small improvement, but who knows how tomorrow will be.