The troll doesn't seem to think I understand their motives but I do.
I do not know who this person is. I have no idea.
This person is upset that oddtodd.com is not what it used to be. They miss the characters, cartoons, mep, elf up. Halloween. April Fools. All of it.
As often do I.
My apparent disinterest in the website seems like a betrayal. Our troll is no doubt longtime fan who I'm sure wants the anticipation of new cartoons again. The occasional Deng arrival. A new game here or there. The promise of something more.
I left the Laid-Off story unfinished. And broke promises all along the way with weekly cartoons and all that. Multiple times.
And I completely understand. I made a pact. I broke my word. Time after time. I overpromised in the hopes it would spark motivation and inspiration. But other things got in the way. Usually things that provided a needed paycheck. For my broken promises-- I apologize. I got lazy.
I've tried to explain to this person (numerous times) that the high level of maintenance to a website that operates as a 4-figure annual net loss (always has) -- eventually boxed me into a corner. I found myself having sold 'Odd Todd' as a network sitcom, animated cable show, webshow, book, and movie. None of those projects made it into reality. It was a bummer. It was hard. But I realized this character would live on happily on my website.
So I happily chugged along doing some ABC toons or Test Kitchen toons -- and maintained the site as I always have. Got comfortable as a freelance animator. Keeping a pie-in-the-sky project always a possibility.
But eventually, I realized I was simply half-assing everything. And as my freelance work started to become less frequent and money became scary-- I realized I had to reinvent myself. To do so, I needed to step back from the hours of daily work I'd put into the site. I needed to focus on myself. Stop living project to project. I needed to re-focus and relaunch my actual career. Re-focus my talent.
But our troll did not like what the site has become. Something so personal -- became distant. As if the one person who seemed to care so much -- simply stopped caring. Stopped being passionate. As if I took my ball and went home.
It wasn't easy pulling myself away from the site-- but it was essential for my own survival. Creatively, emotionally and otherwise. It was time for me to second wind it. I wanted something more. Something bigger. I wanted to at least get out of my apartment sometimes. I needed to step back and use my time better than spending an afternoon going to a movie I had no interest in seeing just to spend 2 hours writing a movie review.
Although I've long promised projects and announcements. Those things are not in fairytale land. The science fiction script I sold last year is awesome. The sci-fi horror movie I sold this year is amazing. And I have an animated TV show in development.
Of course, no promises. I know things go away sometimes. I've had my share of disappointments. (For ex. ZG wanted to play Odd Todd in a live-action movie and it went as far as seriously almost). I've had professional heartbreak.
But if I didn't step away from the website I was going to go down. Good vibes for all but me.
So to the troll, I have three words for you. Go fuck yourself.
Go fuck yourself for your selfish idiotic bullshit. Go fuck yourself for being an asshole to all the good people who visit this board. Go fuck yourself for dismissing the 7 or 8 years of DAILY work I put into making my website great. Consistently cranking out work. Writing as much as possible. Toons and games. All for the fun of it. Waaah! Go cry somewhere else or troll somewhere else like a petulant child who demands the network bring back their favorite TV show... Waaah!
Everyone on the site and this board goes with the flow. Grows and evolves. Come and go. You're the one stuck up against the rock. Free yourself. Re-invent who you are. And cut it with the bullshit. I don't owe you an apology. I don't owe you fucking anything.
It's time. And if you sincerely want to make a fresh start you still can be welcome here. If you detatch who you are and start over. And you can start with an apology. It'll probably be accepted.
This board is that great.
Change it up. Or leave.
This message has been edited by oddtodd7 on Apr 30, 2012 12:43 PM