I know I haven't been around as much as I used to. but of course it's the final year of my degree so the homestretch is getting tougher.
So this is a bit of a long post of why I'm probably burned out, annoyed, and why my face is probably breaking out again like crazy.
Spring break for me was last week so I go to my mother's house to do laundry and relax with the pets. Thursday rolls around and out of the blue, I see my brother and his preggers wife (who is expecting a boy by the way) coming up the front. No call, not anything just comes to barge in. I know he's my brother and all but it just seems a bit rude to pop by unexpectedly without a call or anything. He says I'm as bad as Mom. Anyway he invites me to breakfast. We go. Beforehand though, my brother takes it upon himself to ask why I dress the way I do now a days. I'll be honest with you, I've taken a bit more attention to my apperance and I just dress nicer now a days. He goes on about how in high school I dressed gothy and he sort of reminisces fondly of it. I don't. Wish he'd stop already. I don't like dressing in all black and rave pants anymore.
Anyway After breakfast we go to his mother in laws house. My sis in law has a habit of trying to get under my skin whenever she can. I was asked if this is my first time being an aunt, and I kindly respond yes it is. And my SIL blurts out "She doesn't want any kids!" She dogs me about this everytime I see her. And she wonders why I don't hang out with her.
One thing I also noticed about hanging around religious people (the family is Muslim) is that you get asked odd questions that really you don't know off the top of your head. I was asked what my first name means. Don't most names mean blessed something anyway? What's the point? (Unless your Damien or Seth I guess).
Anyway I come back from Spring Break and I notice my shower caddy was gone. Mind you it was a spare I had laying around but of course come to find out my roommate just "Borrowed it" and didn't bother to ask. So now I have a chip on my shoulder about that and we're not talking since I fussed at her about it through texting and well you can read it if you want, but I'd advise not to.
And now that I'm back in school, it's time to get creative with project assignments. But I can't I can't think of anything and I'm so burned out for ideas it's not even funny. It's like my school consciousness hasn't kicked in quite yet and it's really costing me time.
So there ya go. And here's the transcript I guess of how my text battle went. Though reading it again, things could be a lot worse, but that wouldn't make me a moody Scorpio now would it? I'm off to my absent minded professor's history class. Bye
Me:
Did either you or megan decide to borrow my shower caddy over the break?
Laura:
yea
Me:
Can you guys please start asking before taking it upon yourselves to borrow my things? This is ridiculous. Thank you
L:
Is it really that big of a deal? What else have I borrowed without asking? U never use it and our stuff keeps falling we just borrowed it until we got a chance to get my own
Me:
Laura it's the fact that you went thru my stuff and just took it. It's bad enough no one asks to use my pans. It's a matter of respect.
Its bad enough I had to grow up and still deal with my brothers taking my stuff without asking. Just dont feel like dealing with it anymore
L:
Look I didn't go threw ur shit I was looking for toilet bowl cleaner ash told me I could use. I barely use ur pans so that's not my damn problem we all have shit that other people use without asking u don't see the rest of us freaking out.
Me:
Well it matters to me. Sorry if I'm the odd one out and no one tells me anything to do with my belongings.
I don't know how to say this - maybe all you really want is a "YEAH! THOSE FUCKERS!" and yeah I could do that.
But - can I just level with you? You have room-mates - isn't your stuff going to get used from time to time?
Is this worth adding to your stress over? When I read your text conversation, it seems like your roomate is gently telling you to lighten up and that you're a bit tightly wound. She may be awful, but she's not rude in that particular conversation.
I guess I'd ratchet up my alarm trigger for things that you actually care about or could reasonably be damaged by communal use - bits of plastic to carry shampoo in, and pans made of metal maybe aren't worth worrying about?
I have never shared an apartment when kitchen implements weren't fair game for everyone - except my chef's knives when I was working in restaurants - but I had those wrapped an in my room anyway. Anything IN the kitchen is fair game isn't it?
I was hesitant to post this, especially from me but Luna you have to lighten up.
So what if your brother just dropped by his own mothers house?
Why do you care what your SIL thinks about you being a non-breeder? Its obvious shes teasing you think youll change your mind once your married. Just shrug it off.
Someone asking what your name means bothers you? Maybe they were just making polite conversation about topics that interested them. Like a whats your sign kind of conversation.
Couldnt your brother be nostalgic for your high school years and be having a hard time watching his little sister grow and change and not quite know how to express it?
And lastly, why not give the roommate your extra shower caddy. It couldnt be more than $15, no one ever needs two, and wouldnt that go a long way to smooth whats been a rocky relationship with these roommates?
I know that is what she would like to hear, too. However, this reminds me of every crappy roommate situation I had in college. Things labeled in the fridge and cabinets, the oh so useful passive-aggressive notes, bleh. And being female, I can tell you women are the worst. Later college years, I went all male roommates. Stinkier, but soooo much less BS. Sorry to say this, but in this case you sound like the kind of roommate that made me mental. If it's that bad, live w/ your mom so you don't subject yourself or your roommates to the torture.
Luna you are super creative, having seen some of your work I'm sure you'll snap out of the funk and come up with awesome stuff!
After working with my Aunt who does graphic design I learned her method for productivity. When she didn't have anything for a specific project she'd set her alarm for 3 a.m. wake up and work on it then. Always said her best work was done in the middle of the night.
The roommate thing I understand to a point. I consider the stuff I put in the kitchen to be free game. I don't like that they use my pots and burn things into the bottom of them, but they are out there to use.
My room, I consider off limits. If they started coming into my room to borrow stuff without letting me know then I'd get pretty pissed.
I appreciate the good wishes and like I said, reading it, there's worse things in the world of course.
I just had to rant since today was a bit of a down day really.
Rant any time you want possum, that's part of what this place is for!
That sort of stuff can seem pretty small when it's happening to someone else, but I know there've been times I've reacted similarly to...er...similar stuff.
So you were having a bad day(s), and feeling grumpy, hard done by, picked on and judgemental. I hope you're feeling more positive soon.
Now, crack those books and get creative and studious!
I am behind you all the way on the roommate thing. When my roommate's laptop broke I had to ask him three times before he'd stop going into my room to borrow mine when I wasn't home.
Yeah maybe the shower caddy thing costs $15 but it does mean something.
If I took the mouse off my co-workers desk because mine broke, you think they'd get pissed? Of course.
And to anon - the real world shouldn't include people who take things without asking. Maybe that's okay to you but most adults don't like it.
heh.
