Been thinking about this, and I know I'm not the only one feeling it..

But lately I've been having an extra-hard time posting.

It hurts.

It's like I look in here all the time, but when it comes to actually posting.. it hurts.

I'm thinking this is like a second stage sadness.. and I thought that since maybe I'm not the only one. I'd lay it right out there. So we'd be 'ok'.

I think it's a stage.

sometimes just seeing the forum is a bit hard.

I guess that we took Monty's feedback for granted and now it is no longer there so the forum seems empty and neglected.

And I am never sure what sort of subjects are going to be appropriate.

I'd just like to say that the effort which Bilbo and Morgaine have put into keeping things going is very much appreciated and I feel very inadequate with my very small contribution.

Bradamante - Warrior Maiden

Sometimes it is by faith alone that we are able we get thru each day....that and a little help from our friends.

Last year a friend of mine died after a long bout with cancer. WordSmith said, "Your friend is in a warmer, bluer sky than any you and I have ever yet known. Be glad for him, my sweet friend. Every second of life is a blessing. So, too, is forever in God's care."

We can find some comfort in his words.

Wow. you got me right where it counts there...

Thank you for being not only a spiritual reflection, and reminder of those things that are precious..

But also for having the heart that you have..

Thank you!

and the tears came :-}

I have felt the same way. I kind of get that little pang in the heart. I don't think I have spoken on ICQ much either. It makes me too sad to turn it on and see that name....and yet I don't have the heart to remove it.

I wonder if NOW he knows how much he meant to all of us....the miserable wretch of a Brit.

sniff

Thanks for having the courage to post what I've wanted to say Alpo. I have been avoiding the forum, especially since Bilbo is away for the week. Thanks Bradamante

Yes, I keep expecting Monty to reply to the posts. Just knowing he was there and would post later was something I took for granted. It's like the guts have been ripped out (sorry to be so graphic but that's how the pain hits me sometimes)

The worst time is as I'm coming home from work. I have to go over a bridge, and nearly every time I do, I think about Monty and miss him being there in cyberspace, as well as 5 minutes up the road from me. Every room in my litle bungalow has at least one memory of him. He just filled the place, you know? And when I go up to the house, I keep expecting him to be in the kitchen, or upstairs on the pc. I can only imagine what it must be like for Maxine.

I don't think he did believe he was loved while he was here, but surely he cannot be in any doubt now.

And it makes me think about the time we have here, and the people who matter in my life, and how precious life is, and how shockingly easy it can be to lose it.

I know I've been avoiding here because of how much I miss Monty, but deep down I think he wouldn't have wanted me to do that. If I do stop coming then that would be like saying what we all had here was pointless and empty. I have made some great fiends here, some who I probably will never meet IRL. But that doesn't make those fiendships less important because of it.
At the same time, if the old forum had not been so welcoming then I probably would not have kept coming back. I would have then missed a fantastic opportunity to 'meet' people online I never would have had a chance to meet up in real life.

Sorry this has turned into an epic!

Remember the good times the two of you shared, and rejoice in them.

And, thank you for being a good friend to us all.

You all got me..

But Morgie.. oh my gosh.. there went the waterworks.

Yes, please don't leave. I think that's one reason I wanted to post. To help us hang together. HUGS

Hear Hear!!!! They should BOTH run for Governor of California....tho Bilbo's abs put Ahnald's to shame.

um ... dunno if what Dumas just said there is a compliment .. but thanks anyway

I read with interest and much agreement with Alpo and Morgers - it still hits me when I consciously think of our loss.

Mr Luigi for instance.

But one thing that I'm sure the WordSmith wanted was to keep this a happy place for us to revel and enjoy these fantastic (no other word for it) friendships. Just how many of us would go looking for chums the world over if we had to do it the hard way?
Douglas Adams engineered the architecture to start with and Monty has gone on to extend it's working life. The least we can do in their memories is to stay and do our best to continue this fraternity.
Hmm, that sounds like a chore the way I expressed it, but wow, if only all my chores were so pleasurable!

I think he's still here watching us ... DA too ... and when we all meet up again ..

.. I'm goin' to get one helluva slapping from Mr Luigi! <gulp>

Good to see you back

And that there Mr. Luigi will have to answer to ME first!!

Hey, what's all this about your pecs??? Dumas, do you know something I don't??? LOL!