28-11-2004 - Sunday
Just in case you think that I'm the only sane person in this soapie setup I have a confession to make. Robert has what the lonely hearts sections of the newspapers call "ties". He has no intention of ever leaving his wife and I know that I am an idiot to feel the way I do about him. I don't even know that I am the only "other woman" in his life; I see little enough of him that he could have a dozen other women on the side. Luckily he has no children and I understand that there never will be but i don't feel good about it.
I need to meet somebody who makes me feel the way that he does but who is available. Here I am at the ripe old age of 23 and stuck on a man who will never allow me to be anything but peripheral to his real life and who, because of the way I feel about him, stops me from looking for somebody else.
He is coming back from his latest trip at the end of the week and I should make a firm stand and refuse to see him - but I know that all he has to do is call and I'll come running.
Damn! Damn! Damn!
... and I think that I can sort out Mandy's and Peter's problems!
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