Heather,
there is help. you arent alone. you are not loosing it and your are not mentally ill. Get this program: ATTACKING ANXITY by lisinda basett.
I had theworst anxity and panic ther e was I was house bound and depressed over my situation. one night while having a time where i just couldnt sleep i saw her infmercial and it was as if they were talking about me. long story short, i got the program and used it and yo im telling you it cured me. totally. its great and i think you should get it. you cango on line and do a search for her name or go to the mid west center for stress and anxity and you can order it there or look for it on TV. im tellling you it did this and it worked . good luck babe.