I don't have words for how I'm feeling right now. Having call to search up those cell phone recordings I made of Eric's solo show last July (all 17 minutes of them), I found the clip I was looking for but then decided I wanted to listen to the others. And here I am suddenly in a different world. I feel like I'm there again, with my friend Jane who was awed by them - so soon on her way to South Carolina for a crazy year with Americorps, getting teary-eyed as Adam came up and sang the last song, Fortunate, with defiant just-see-if-you-can-get-me-off-this-stage Eric. There are all these things we can't possibly remember, just too much stuff in every day to keep on top of. So listening to these songs reminds me of then, the things I felt then, which seems so long ago in terms of all the things that have happened in the interim even though it was such a short while. And I know that when I'm 60, even if I don't remember what I was wearing or where we went afterwards, I'll remember the emotions. And I'll smile. 'Cause those were some good times. Are some good times. And right up till now I didn't even think of all this change, how even in a year everything has just continued to move forward and change. But these memories, they haven't.
In one of my classes undergrad, we discussed how even people with Alzheimer's continue to respond to music. Specifically, people at an elderly Jewish center (in this context) who couldn't remember their names could sing their way through entire songbooks. From memory, or maybe you could say from emotion. These things really, truly are always with us, and if we forget during most of our waking moments, it's good to have these moments to remind us.
Man. What a strange 'journey' this whole Common Rotation thing has been. Listening to this, I recall still thinking a month between shows would kill me, worrying and wondering if they'd just up and disappear.
I'm gonna love every one of these memories when I'm older, if possible, even more than I do now. And I know I can't be alone on this.
deborah
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