It is a couple days after Christmas and my heart is still hurting. I lost my mom in July and am just now begining to relize that she will never stand by my side agian. So many times I blame myself for her passing so soon. She was the best mom anyone could ever have. I loved her with my life. She was my best friend and alot of the time my only friend. I lost her to the cancer. It just ate up her will to live. I miss her every second. I am getting over that sad stage. Even thought it returns oh so much. But I now have laughter in my heart. I now that my mom loved that. She would do anything just to put a smile on her kids face and wipe away the tears. I just wish that I could remember the way her hands looked and the way that her hair moved in the wind. I just hope that one day I will spend Christmas with her agian.
{*KAT*}
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