I'm in the same boat and having the same thoughts. How ironic to want to miss af so much a few years back and now to want to keep it going. It's such a wild ride to have children and meno both in your 40's. It's sort of hard to place all the emotions in the right place. Also, I continue to have urges for another child and it is sort of ridiculous. The only good part of meno is to have this urge go away once and for all!
I have been taking vitex and some progesterone (natural) a bit here and there to stay regular. I've had wildly irregular af cycles this past year and I don't want to deal with it. Luckily, no hot flashes/sweats I don't think. I had those in a bad way in my mid 30's during my first menopause LOL!!!!... the one that was really thyroid disease undx.
Anyway, soooooooo glad to see an old timer here, especially a fellow fsh'er that had kids at 41 & 44 like me (sort of--41, 43, 45 for me)
Stick around, we miss you!