thank you for your very thoughtful post and your advice. You are so right about trying to do it all, I am. Lately i have been trying to figure out when to just say no and to ask my DH for help. He realized I was at a breaking point and has been trying to be home more and more involved with the kids which really takes so much stress off of me. But it is work in progress, hopefully my therapist will help. I just want to enjoy life again, there isn't any right now. Regarding work, the problem is that I feel so guilty taking time off work. I just found out the other practitioners have been feeling overbooked and stressed, me leaving will weigh heavily on them, I can't do that to them unless I plan to walk away all together and unfortunately we need the money. I do feel conflicted by this. I am planning on taking one week off a month through the summer and see how it goes. If I am at the point where I feel the need to jump I will just have to leave. I wasn't prepared to deal with the complexity of parenting, it is so much harder than I ever imagined. Again thank you for taking so much time to write and to be so honest, I really appreciate it.