How do we live through these days? Feeling like we just want to crawl under covers and die but there is a baby to feed, diaper, entertain and keep safe? And there is no relief in sight for hours while the dishes and laundry just keep piling up...
I tell you there is no paid job on the planet harder, except maybe chicken boning in the American South.

My worst moment ever as when DS was a baby, just crawling. I had a virus and was so sick and just wanted to close my eyes and sleep. DS was really demanding and wouldn't let me. DH was out of town (of course). At one point I ran to the bathroom to vomit and didn't get there on time and meanwhile DS started crawling over to me (you get the drift, it was disgusting). I just bawled.

Hugs to you. Hope you're better fast.

xoxo
Lillian

This is one of my biggest anxieties/fears about parenting and you are living it. I'm so sorry. Can you possibly find someone to come in and help out so you can get a break?

I really feel for you.

I wish I could come over and help
sending you healing vibes and a big hug instead

jm


me:40, DH 41
FSH 26
DS: born by c-sec Apr15'03 (after 4 years of ttc, starting in 1998)
DD born by c-sec Oct 13 2007 (after just under 3 years of ttc)
DS was conceived naturally the cycle following a cancelled DE IVF, using my good friend's eggs. She was on the verge of hyperstimming.
DD's nat conception I attribute to using OPKs like a crazy nut, eating grapefruit daily and using preseed. also 5 cycles of TCM ending 2 cycles before that lucky cycle.
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I'm so sorry, Elizabeth. You sound like you feel just wretched. So, so hard. I was so afraid in the last few weeks that one or both of us would come down with H1N1 while our children were sick; that we didn't makes me so grateful. I'm just so sorry you're having to deal with this. Hopefully today you're feeling a bit better?

Don't worry about the dishes and laundry. You need every bit of sleep you can get, when you can get it.

xoxo Karen

it is an under appreciated job as well. No calling out sick when you just want to stay in bed. Hang in there.

it terrifies me! my mom is nearby but i have made DH stay home the one time i got really sick and just couldn't move. definitely ignore the household chores. do the bare minimum! feel better!!

me: 39
dh: 34
dx'd 1/2004 with 18.9
1st IUI 1/04- bfp but no hb at 8 weeks
2nd IUI 5/04 - bfn
3rd IUI 8/04 - BFP (fsh tested 10 that month) - DD born 4/29/2005

ttc #2
1st IUI - BFN
1st IVF - BFN
2nd, 3rd and 4th IUI's - BFN
taking a couple of months off to do accu and herbs
5th IUI - BFN
appointment with cooper 11/19 for DE and possible cycle with own eggs if we do something to help my lining.
O'd day before cooper visit and he put me on p4 - got BFP 2weeks later!

It's a Girl!! due 8/9/08
C-Section scheduled for 7/30/08
Dylan Moon born 7/30/08! 6lbs 12 oz 19 1/2 inches long and perfect!

I have two brain tumors (that can cause killer headaches/brain swelling) and chronic broncitis, there are days when I can barely lift my head from the pillow.

Yet, life must go on, I remember caring for sick little DS (who has respiratory problems to this day) -- he still gets severe croup in the middle of the night, and needs to be nebulized/taken to the hospital... it is so hard.

HUGS! Hang in there!

Maria