Why am I bitter?

It’s because when I was in infant and junior school I saw lots and lots of kiddies being smacked, slapped, spanked, slippered and caned. Sometimes it was over the teacher’s knee, sometimes over a desk, sometimes touching their toes. I had a different teacher each year and they all liked giving corporal punishment and they all had different methods and so I saw them use all the different implements. There were rulers and slippers, canes and belts, table tennis bats and hands. Watching these punishments gave me a strange feeling in my stomach, even at such an early age. It has stayed with me to such an extent that I am now a total fetishist. The only way I can summon up feelings of sexual excitement is to think about corporal punishment. I was never on the receiving end, and did not want to be, it was simply watching others get it that made me like this.

I hate those teachers.

As well you should.

You clearly are not a teacher, I suspect.

So reverse the old adage:-


If you can't join them,beat them!


There must be a few more like you around-it's a more widespread "fascination" than most people will admit.


Steve M

I can sympathise with this, I was caned at both junior and senior school. Females did the caning at junior school and both male and female at senior.
At the time these punishments just caused intense pain in my bottom, but as I got older the fetish/craving for discipline especially with the cane was formost in my mind.
I often wondered if these teachers knew that the sight and sound of a cane was causing intense erections during my teens. (I should also mention that a lady friend of mine confirmed that the cane did indeed give her sexual pleasure as well)

You put it very well Bitter although we are always a bit suspicious of "loads"-well lets say a few.
You,We,are all victims unwillingingly so of a flawed
childhood upbringing.
Its too late now to do anything.
Sadly the precautions in force (no Bare Bottom),in private etc were not always adhered to and even if they were the whacks over clothed behinds even in private
were enough to spark the perversion.
You probably can do it normal if pressed but we understand-you find it harder.
Its easier to think about C.P.
You probably think about it all day morning noon and night.Its your favourite fantasy even now 50 years(?)later after that little smack.
Such a powerful thing sex isnt it?
Ordinary folks can never understand this.
All we can say now its more hopeful for todays generation as C.P.is minimised much more even if not completely eradicated.
Still theres worse things to have happened.
About hating teachers-well they were just doing their job.They are probably gone now?
Perhaps some of their punishment did make people think twice about doing wrong?
The desire to punish is strong-more so in males apparently.
I think our thing ought to be a recognised psychiatric condition perhaps?

Thank you all for your comments and advice.

I have known quite a few women who were willing to talk about the punishments they received and witnessed at school. At the time I thought how lucky I was to know such women, for from what I have read, most women are too embarrassed to talk about their own experiences of cp. Looking back, however, I now realise that by engaging in these conversations I was planting the seeds of fetishism so deep that today I cannot function sexually without thinking about cp.

Its nearly 20 years since school CP was used, yet CP fetishism has never been so prevelent as now amongst all age groups.
It appears to attract those too young to have any experience of it.
Strange but true......

Yes to some extent this is true but people under say 35 appear to be quite a small minority and it appears to be getting less with every passing year.
Has anyone attended the C.P.adult recreationist role play event "The Night of the Cane"?Tis is strictly for adults over 21 who wish to role play CP in a Classroom setting.Some find it theraputic to see acted out and act out their experiences.However events draw mainly an older crowd.In the room the numbers with grey hair over 40ish were well in the majority in fact most fell withing the age range 39-65+.The event is held yearly.By the way any young ladies who if by any chance-or their partners-reading this who would wish to further role play as they do at the event are most welcome to contact Bozo who is very generous.Please post below or request contact e mail.Thanks!