My second caning at school, and this time there wasn't anything
deliberate about it. This story is probably somewhat embellished - I
certainly can't remember exactly what was said at all stages, and so
conversations are just similar to what was said. I do have a photocopy
of the letter sent home to my parents and so that prompted a few
memories of the discussions I had with my mother that would have
otherwise been lost, so I think there's a good chance there are other
things I have forgotten as well. I tried writing this totally as a
list of the facts and it turned out very dull for me to write and I
guess probably dull to read so while this isn't perfectly true, I
think it's close enough and interesting enough to actually be
interesting. At least I hope so.
This all took place when I was 15 years old and probably about six
months after my first caning. I was attending a co-educational private
school which was one of only a fairly small number of private schools
still using physical punishment (which they referred to as
'traditional discipline') where I lived (the state government actually
announced last week that physical punishment will soon be banned in
private schools, which is probably a very good thing, but I am glad
that they hadn't done that when I was at school). At the time this
happened, I was aware that the idea of physical punishment was
sexually charged for me, and it had become a common part of my fantasy
life. In terms of my real life... after I'd got myself deliberately
caned at school the previous year, I'd decided that this wasn't
something I would deliberately seek out again. I had enjoyed the
aftereffects of it and I really liked the memory of it, but the actual
experience had been considerably more painful than I had expected and
I didn't really want it to happen again. And because I was well
behaved at school and because the cane wasn't used all that often and
really wasn't used on girls all that often, I didn't really expect it
to happen again.
At home, I had managed to get the wooden spoon from my parents twice
in the previous six months (not including the time I'd got it just
before my first caning). It wasn't common but I don't think my parents
wanted me to get the idea that I was too old for it. But I really
hadn't done anything really seriously wrong at home either - getting
smacked wasn't seen as a really serious punishment or anything.
A few weeks after the school year started, my whole class went on
school camp - this happened every year, we just went away for a week
as a class. It wasn't real camping in tents or anything like that - we
went to a location in the bush or near the beach and stayed in huts
and did activities like orienteering and ropes courses and
bushwalking. I'm sure there was supposed to be an educational purpose
to it, but we really saw it as a little holiday.
We were assigned to rooms randomly among our sex. They did this at all
our camps to try and break up friendship groups so we would get to
know other people. And this particular year, I was put into a room
with five other girls - I'll give them all names so we can keep them
straight (and I will use the name Penny).
There was Kylie - Kylie was a rich bitch. She was mean and nasty, a
bully really, who loved to give everyone she didn't like a really hard
time. She was popular among some of the girls and a lot of us who
didn't like her pretended that we did because we didn't want her to
start picking on us. She was a ringleader, head of a little clique.
At the other end of the social scale was Michelle. Michelle was a bit
of a geek. She was pretty smart, but mostly what made her a geek was
that she didn't fit in very well socially with other girls. She wasn't
really interested in the same music as most girls, or clothes, or
makeup, or anything like that. It was silly things too - well, they
seemed silly at the time - like the fact she always used to wear a
singlet, which everybody saw when we changed for PE, and she always
avoided showering after PE. And she got away with it too.
She lived with her father and brothers, and I really don't think she
had anyone to tell her much about girly stuff, even if she had been
interested. She really wasn't that different from the rest of us, but
she was different enough that being stuck for most of five days in
contact with Kylie - well, the teachers should have known better, I
think, than to make that happen.
Besides Kylie and Michelle and me, there were three other girls in the
room - Tasma, Jackie, and Chloe. They were... well, just ordinary
girls really. Like me. Tasma was on the fringes of Kylie's clique and
so they latched onto each other, but Jackie and Chloe and I were not
really a part of that. We weren't in the popular kids, but we weren't
unpopular either. This story though, mostly concerns Kylie and
Michelle - and me, because I'm the one telling it. But my part in it
was strictly supporting cast along with a number of others.
The camp was a pretty nice one. Some camps we went to were very
rudimentary - old wooden huts deep in the bush. This one was new, and
was near the beach. It wasn't luxurious - but there was carpet on the
floor and the toilets and showers were actually in the same buildings
as the rooms we were occupying. On some camps, we had to walk to and
from ablutions blocks and I always hated that. This was much better in
most ways - but the increased privacy was a problem in terms of
teachers supervising us. To know what was going on in the rooms, they
had to walk down a corridor past our rooms rather than just past huts,
and the modern insulation probably made it harder to hear what was
happening as well.
Trouble started the first day - we got to the camp site a little after
lunchtime and after we'd eaten and unpacked (which mostly consisted of
dumping bags on the beds to claim them, it was decided that we would
go down to the beach for a swim.
The list of clothing we were supposed to bring on the camp was quite
clear that girls had to bring one piece swimsuits. And that's
precisely what I had - my mother had the habit of checking such lists
and making sure what I took was appropriate. Everybody else had one
piece swimsuits as well - except for Kylie. Kylie, being Kylie, didn't
think rules applied to her and so she had a bikini - not an incredibly
revealing bikini, but still she knew she was breaking the rules. But
though our class teacher, Mrs Connery wasn't happy about this, I
suppose she didn't want to make a major case about it. She told Kylie
off, but I doubt she cared much. And she was allowed to wear it.
When we got to the beach, Kylie initially tried to match up with her
clique for beach games and was most disgusted when she was informed
that all activities for the day had to be done with your room mates.
Well, right from the start, she started teasing poor Michelle about
anything that caught her fancy - Michelle's lack of chest development,
and the fact that she... well, she really needed a depilatory if she
was going to wear swimmers. This probably wasn't true - it was
teasing. It wasn't nice to listen to Kylie - but it also didn't seem
to be worrying Michelle too much. And Kylie couldn't be too obvious
about it - Mrs Connery had her eye on her. And even at one stage came
up and asked Michelle if everything was all right. Michelle said that
it was.
That was just the start though. Over the next few days everytime she
had a chance, Kylie gave Michelle a hard time. Tasma backed Kylie up
all the time - I think she saw a chance to get herself more into the
clique. Jackie and Chloe occasionally made some comments as well - you
didn't want to get on the wrong side of Kylie because then you'd be a
target.
Me... I was probably just about as bad as Jackie and Chloe to be
honest. But I honestly can't remember being like them. I think I've
probably blocked it out a bit. Because I really feel deeply ashamed of
the fact that I might have done what I remember them doing. Maybe it
doesn't seem as obvious when you do it, maybe I was a little bit
better. But if so, it won't have been by much. I didn't have the
popularity to take Kylie on, and I wasn't brave enough to put myself
at risk.
I don't want to go into all the bullying - most of it probably
wouldn't sound that bad, anyway, and Michelle seemed to shrug most of
it off. And maybe I was a little better than the others looking back
on it, because she started to hand around me. And I supposed I tried
to be a friend.
Thursday evening... I suppose that is the bit I have to talk about.
Our group went canoeing on the Thursday, and I shared a canoe with
Michelle all that day. We talked a bit - not about anything important
to me, I honestly can't remember what we talked about. We only got
back to camp just a little before dinner, and those of us who'd been
canoeing were sent to the cabins to shower. There was going to be a
sort of a mini-disco on that final night of camp - nothing at all
special, but most of us didn't really get the chance to do things like
that very often - it didn't fit into the schools ethos.
Now this camp was a modern one and that meant that the shower
facilities were a lot more modern than in most camps. In particular we
had proper shower cubicles - cubicles with doors. On previous camps,
we'd had a curtain at the most and often we hadn't even had that.
We all grabbed a cubicle - Michelle was at one end of the row - and
went in and started showering. White - or cream, perhaps - tiles and a
pale coloured floor. There was a drain in one of the middle showers -
all water from the end showers flowed towards that drain.
Midway through the shower, Kylie suddenly gave out a melodramatic scream.
"Michelle! You're disgusting! You're weeing in the shower!"
Kylie was in one of the middle cubicles, I was between her and
Michelle on the end. I looked down, and there was a yellow flow
passing through my shower towards the centre - and it looked like
exactly what Kylie was saying. But Michelle's voice came from the
other side. "I am not!"
"You are, I can see it. It's either you or Penny? Is it you, Penny?"
"No." It certainly wasn't.
"It's shampoo. I've got yellow shampoo, and I've knocked it over."
"Oh yes, very likely."
"It's true!" Michelle's voice was obviously close to tears.
I heard the door slam open to my left - Kylie's cubicle - "OK, you
little scrubber. Prove it. Show us your shampoo."
"What?"
"Show us. Open your cube and show us."
Now - look, I had my doubts. To me, I thought that it was possible
that for once, Kylie had a point. It did seem as if Michelle had done
what she was being accused of - and I was standing in it. I also
knew... I knew Kylie. She would tell everyone about this and I thought
it was likely that after talking about it a few times, she'd stop
saying it was Michelle that had done it - and it would suddenly be
Michelle or Penny.
I wanted to see this shampoo. If it existed, well, we were both off
the hook - because there was a perfectly innocent explanation. If it
didn't - if she'd lied...well, that would prove she had a reason to
lie.
So I pushed my cubicle open as well. And stepped outside to join
Kylie. Yes, we were both naked - and I was dripping wet as well.
Nearly all the girls showered together twice a week after PE, so it
wasn't unusual to see each other naked. Michelle was one of the
exceptions though. She seemed to be shy about her body - she'd even
been changing on the camp by sneaking into a toilet cubicle.
"Open the door, Michelle." I wanted this solved as fast as possible.
"Give me a chance to get dressed."
The other girls had also joined us. "Come on Michelle, we've seen it
all before."
"Just a minute."
Her towel was hanging over the top of her cubicle door - and Kylie
reached up and grabbed it. Now she had no way of drying herself. If
she was going to get dressed in there, she'd have to put her clothes
on wet.
"Please give me my towel back!"
I was getting frustrated. I honestly felt that this was silly.
Michelle brought a lot of her problems on herself, it seemed to me.
Sure, there were some things she couldn't help - and none of what she
did was an excuse for people teasing her - but she seemed to be her
own worst enemy. We were all girls - her shyness was just giving
people another excuse to tease her. On top of everything else.
"Michelle - come on. Just open the door and show us the shampoo. We're
all girls, we've all got the same bits. You're just being silly. If
you've got the shampoo show us."
There was silence - and then the handle was turned. And the door opened.
And Michelle was standing there naked - with a large birthmark
covering her stomach and chest.
She had the shampoo in her hands - and it was yellow. But nobody was
looking at that.
"You're a freak." Kylie's voice was scathing. "You're an ugly freak."
The look on Michelle's face was horrible as she slammed the door.
I stayed behind after the others had gone... I'd told her she was
silly to hide her body. And I felt really responsible for what had
happened. While I dressed I tried talking to her, but all I could
hear was sobbing. I knew I was missing dinner - and I was hungry - and
her constant crying got on my nerves. So eventually... well, I told
her that if she didn't want my help, she could stay in the shower all
night. I wasn't her babysitter, and if she was going to be such a baby
that was her business. She should grow up.
When I got to dinner - I found that Kylie and Tasma had told everyone
about the birthmark and Jackie and Chloe had backed them up. When I
was asked, I said that yes, I'd seen it - what else could I say?
Michelle didn't come to dinner. And she didn't come to the dance
after. We should have told Mrs Connery what was happening, really -
but then again, Mrs Connery should have noticed her absence. I didn't
report it though - I assumed she cry herself out, and sleep on it and
we were going home tomorrow. And if had told and got Kylie in trouble,
that would have made me a target.
I'm not trying to avoid responsibility for what I did. I'm just trying
to be honest about my feelings at the time. I should have told Mrs
Connery, and ignored Kylie. But I didn't.
When the disco finally ended - and we went to our room - there was no
sign of Michelle. And the room was a mess.
Clothes were strewn everywhere, bags were open.
At this point, Jackie went running and got Mrs Connery.
We went through all the strewn baggage trying to work out what was
missing. All our money was gone. Her daypack was missing, along with
clothing. Lots of Kylie's clothes were missing as well - we found them
later stuffed down a toilet.
Mrs Connery questioned us - sharply and effectively - and we confessed
about what had happened in the showers. We didn't talk about any of
the previous incidents. But that was enough. The teachers organised a
search along the main roads, and into the nearby town. And they found
Michelle wandering about, half hysterical, trying to figure out where
to get a taxi.
Mrs Connery came back and came into our room and told us that Michelle
was safe - and that she was going to get to the bottom of this.
Michelle didn't return to our room - I believe she stayed in Mrs
Connery's room that night.
The following morning it was announced that rather than leave at
lunchtime to go back to school, we would be leaving straight after
breakfast. We were not popular with our classmates as that meant every
group missed out on one of the camp activities. But, frankly, the
anger of our friends wasn't our major concern. Mrs Connery had phoned
the school and spoken to the Principal and they had decided to leave
the investigation until we returned to school. When Mrs Connery told
us this, she was very deliberate in emphasising that the Principal was
extremely angry.
We went back on the buses - Michelle was put on a different bus from
us. We had a three hour trip back to school and everybody on the bus
knew that we were facing serious trouble when we got back to school.
This was caning territory - and girls didn't get caned that often - so
the boys especially were having a great time discussing what was
likely to happen to us. Kylie was... well, she was attractive, a lot
of the boys liked her - and they probably got a great thrill out of
talking about her getting caned in particular. The rest of us... well,
we were incidental compared to Kylie - I was of some interest, simply
because I had been caned before - as had Kylie in Year 7, I found out
- and some of the boys, more familiar with the cane than I, took
particular pleasure in telling me that if the Principal had to cane
someone a second time, he really caned them very hard.
When we got back to school, the five of us found ourselves taking to
an empty classroom fairly near the Principal's office. Michelle was
taken off by herself - I found out later to be interviewed by the
Principal, Mrs Connery, and our Year Coordinator, Mr White, about
exactly what had happened.
We were left sitting in that room for over an hour - Jackie, Chloe,
and Tasma kept asking Kylie and me what the cane was like, but beyond
saying that it hurt, I really didn't know what to say - I certainly
wasn't going to risk talking about it openly, given my sexual interest
in it in case Kylie picked up on that. Kylie didn't talk much about it
either. She said that it hurt, but it wasn't really that big a deal.
Sitting in that room, with time to think... well, I was scared. My
caning the year before had hurt and I was afraid of it. But at the
same time, I was, I suppose a bit excited. But I was also really
ashamed at the situation I was in - and I knew something that Jackie
and Chloe and Tasma probably didn't. That your parents found out if
you were going to get the cane. And my parents had extremely strong
views on bullying.
My parents believed in physical punishment - normally administered
with a wooden spoon on the seat of my briefs. It was enough to hurt me
perfectly effectively for their purposes - but it didn't do any long
term damage.
But a couple of years earlier, my older brother had come home from
school with a note that said he'd been bullying somebody and he hadn't
got the spoon on his underpants which had been normal for him as well.
Instead he'd got a proper belting - with a belt - across his bare
backside. He'd screamed for mercy as it was happening - and it was a
very scary experience even for me. And it looked like I was going to
be bringing home a similar note - and I was terrified at the thought
of a belting like that. I was somewhat excited by the thought of being
caned again, amidst the fear - but that type of belting... that didn't
excite me at all. I probably had the feelings for that that my parents
would have said I was supposed to have!
The belt didn't injure my brother or anything - I should say that. My
parents were never brutal.
When the teachers finally came in, the Principal sat down at the desk
at the front of the room. The other two teachers sat down at pupils
desks as we were doing as he shuffled through the papers he'd brought
with him.
"Right. I've spoken to Michelle and I have to say that I am absolutely
disgusted with all of you. Bullying and teasing are not acceptable,
and given how long you have all been at this school, you should know
that. Here and now is your one chance to speak in your own defence.
And I would warn you that if you don't have a defence, then your best
course is absolute honesty. Whatever you have done already is done
already - and you are going to be punished for it. Dishonesty now will
simply lead to more severe punishment. Total honesty now - facing up
to what you've done in a way that convinces me that you understand
what you've done - might lead to some degree of leniency."
"Kylie Gilroy first - according to Michelle, you constantly teased her
about her appearance while you were on camp, you made fun of her...
stage of development, you made fun of her supposed lack of physical
hygiene, you made some very inappropriate comments about her body
hair, you falsely accused her of urinating in the showers, you forced
her to expose herself to you by taking her towel, and then you told
everybody that you could that she had a birthmark - knowing that this
would embarrass her. Is this a fair summation of events?"
"Yes, Sir - except..."
"Yes?"
"I thought she had peed in the shower, Sir. I really did."
"I see - well, that hardly matters compared to anything else. Is the
rest accurate?"
"Yes, Sir."
"Very well - thank you for your honesty. Tasma Ende. According to
Michelle, you were involved in all or nearly all of the things that
Kylie initiated? Do I need to go through them again?"
"No Sir."
"Well, is it true."
"Yes, Sir."
"Thank you for your honesty. Penny Jordan."
My turn.
"According to Michelle, you were involved in some of the general
teasing that Kylie and Tasma have already admitted to, and
specifically you forced her to expose herself, pretending to be her
friend - and then you called her an immature baby because she was
upset about what had happened, and told her to grow up? Is this
accurate?"
"No, Sir... I didn't force her to expose herself. I told her to come
out because I thought that was best. I really did, Sir. I was trying
to be her friend."
"But were you involved with some of the teasing? And did you call her
those names?"
"Yes, Sir."
"So is it mostly accurate?"
"Yes, Sir."
"Thank you for making that clear. Chloe Thomas - according to
Michelle, you were involved in some of the general teasing that the
others have admitted to, and you told some boys about her birthmark.
Is that accurate?"
"Yes, Sir."
"Thank you for being so straightforward. Jacqueline Ward - the same
applies to you. Involvement in the general teasing - do you agree?"
"Yes, Sir."
"Thank you girls, for not making this any harder than it needed to be.
Now, I'm sure you know what is going to happen - you will be caned on
Monday. For now, I'm going to give you the notes that you need to take
home to be signed by your parents."
I heard Chloe, sitting next to me, groan.
"I also want you to consider of how much worse the consequences of
what you did could have been. Michelle was extremely upset. She could
have done far worse than just run away. I hope you will all apologise
to her for your behaviour - I can't and won't force you to do so.
You'll have to make that decision for yourself. Come up and get your
notes."
He sealed them in envelopes before he came them to us and wrote our
parents names on them.
"Make sure you get them signed and bring them back on Monday. My
office at lunchtime."
Mr White spoke up. "Actually, here at recess, first."
"Very well - Jackie, Chloe, Tasma, you can go and join your classmates
- Penny and Kylie wait here for a moment."
The other three girls went while Kylie and I stood waiting.
"I've caned both of you before. Now I want you to understand something
- the first time children are caned, they are often very scared of the
unknown before the caning takes place. You two have been caned before,
so perhaps you feel that you know what to expect? Well, let me tell
you this. I can cane much harder than I did this first time I caned
you. Don't think that you have any idea of what is going to happen to
you on Monday - because you don't. That's all. You can go."
I went - straight out the door and straight down the hall to the girls
toilets where I locked myself in a cubicle and masturbated. All the
fear of what my parents would do to me. The fear of the cane as well -
were far less important at that moment compared to the feelings that
that last statement had aroused in me.
Soon after I was done, all the fear returned. But that... that was incredible.
I spent the rest of the day in my class doing free activities - we
were home from camp early so we were allowed to read, or play games
just to pass the time. Michelle was in one corner of the classroom.
Her eyes were red, as if she'd been crying. Chloe actually spent the
afternoon crying, but the teachers didn't say anything.
Just before the bell went we retrieved our bags from where they'd been
left and I lugged mine to the gates. My father was picking me up -
considering the amount of baggage I had I could hardly ride my bike.
And also sitting there waiting was Michelle - she was being picked up
from there as well.
"Hi Michelle."
"Hi Penny."
"Look Michelle... I've got to say, I'm really sorry about what
happened on camp. I shouldn't have called you a baby. I should have
stood up to Kylie."
"That's OK - I hope you're not in much trouble."
I pulled the note from my pocket where I'd placed it. "I am a bit."
She reached inside her coat and pulled out an envelope. "Snap."
"You're in trouble?"
"Yeah. I shouldn't have run off. And I shouldn't have stolen
everybody's money. And I should have told Mrs Connery what was
happening."
"Oh, gosh, I'm sorry."
"Don't be. I mean I don't want to get caned - but I'm not complaining.
They're right. You're right too. I do need to grow up."
My father pulled up. "I have to go."
"See you Monday."
"Yeah."
I loaded up my bags and got into the car. Dad asked me about camp -
and I decided to delay telling him about certain details. I told him
it went OK. On the way home, Dad revealed that he was going away on
Sunday for a couple of weeks - work took him away periodically - and
when I heard that I decided that I would delay handing over the note
to my mother until my father was gone. I knew he'd find out
eventually, of course. Mum would not keep this secret.
Mum and Dad probably thought I was tired out from camp. Or getting
sick over that weekend. I wasn't exactly in a happy mood. And I had to
bribe my little brother not to tell Mum what had happened - news had
got around the school. My little sister was young enough that it
hadn't percolated down to her level.
Finally on Sunday evening, after Dad had left, I faced the music.
"Mum, I have a note from school."
"Oh?" I handed it over - it wasn't that unusual for me to fail to
discover a note until I was packing up my homework on a Sunday night.
She opened the envelope and began to frown as soon as she started
reading. As she read her eyes flashed and her lips became set very
hard. She was obviously getting very angry. Not surprisingly. When she
had finished reading, she passed me the note - and pointed at the
section which described my offence. I have a photocopy of the note, so
I can quote the charges precisely:
Teasing and bullying another girl while on camp. Your daughter was one
of a number of girls involved. Her general conduct during the camp was
also rather poor.
Besides this handwritten section, the note was a form letter - it was
an 'Authorisation for Corporal Punishment'. It laid out the schools
policy on corporal punishment and told my parents it had been decided
to cane me. They had to sign the form - both parents if possible, one
would do - but if they didn't, I could be expelled. Very ominously
there were two boxes - one of which was to be ticked if the school
wanted my parents to reinforce the punishment at home. The other to be
ticked if that was not considered necessary.
The first time I was caned, the second box was ticked - but my mother
had given me the wooden spoon anyway. This time, the first box was
ticked - the school wanted my parents to back them up.
"Penny - did you do these things?"
"I don't think there was anything wrong with my general conduct..."
"That's like arguing about whether the getaway car ran a red light
Penny. Did you tease and bully another girl?"
"Yes, Mum."
"Who?"
"Michelle Quinn."
"Michelle. That mouse? Oh, Penny."
"It wasn't just me, Mum - it was Kylie and..."
"Kylie Gilroy? You went along with her while she picked on Michelle?"
"Yes Mum."
"I am so disappointed in you, Penny. I am so angry at you. And you
left this until your father was gone, didn't you?"
"Yes Mum."
"Why? Do you think I can't use the belt?"
"Oh God, NO, Mum. Please, not the belt."
"That's what we did to your brother isn't it?"
"Yes, but..."
"Should I treat you differently just because you are a girl?"
"No, but please, Mum, I can't stand the belt. I can't take the belt."
"Penny, this isn't about what you think you can stand. Or you think
you can take."
"Please." I was crying - and whining.
"What did you do?"
I told her everything. I can't remember exactly what I said, or even
close to it. I just know it was a total confession delivered in tears
to a mother who showed not the slightest sign of sympathy. When it was
done, though... she walked to the kitchen drawer and pulled it open
and took out the wooden spoon. I have never been so relieved in my
life to see that spoon.
"Come here."
Whenever she gave us the spoon once we were tall enough, it was always
while we bent over the kitchen counter. She tucked the spoon under her
arm as she undid my jeans and pulled them down. Then she pulled down
my briefs exposing me to her. I hoped my little brother was upstairs.
On only one previous occasion had she used the spoon on my bare
bottom.
"Next time, it will be the belt," she said as she pushed me over the counter.
She delivered hard and fast twelve smacks with the head of that spoon
to the left hand side of my bottom. It hurt a lot and I made no
attempt to avoid crying. When she was done, I heard her speak.
"Go back and watch television, Chris. Your sister has been very naughty."
And I cringed when I heard that. Then another twelve smacks with the
head of the spoon on the right side of my bottom.
"There'd better not be a next time, Penny. Now go to bed - I don't
want to see you until breakfast."
I pulled up my briefs and my jeans and held them up as I went up the
stairs. I got undressed straightaway and straight into bed, and tried
to rub away the pain. I fell asleep eventually and was woken by the
alarm.
I showered then, and examined my bottom in the mirror. There was some
bruising on the right hand side of my bottom - not a lot, but some -
and I tried to imagine what it would look like by afternoon. I dressed
in school uniform - summer uniform - and put on the thickest pair of
briefs that I had. Unlike my deliberate caning the year before I
didn't want to feel this one anymore than I had to.
When I went downstairs, Mum was cooking me breakfast. She always
cooked us breakfast the day after she'd smacked one of us, and I was
reassured by the smell. But as she served me, she still looked very
cross.
"Mum... are you all right?"
"No, Penny, I'm not all right. I'm still very upset with you, I'm very
angry and I'm very ashamed. But I will get over it, Darling. This is
my problem, not yours. You've misbehaved, you're being punished for
it. That should be the end of it. It will be - soon, I promise. Now
I'm driving you to school today. Your letter is signed, it's on the
counter. And I will pick you up this afternoon and by then, hopefully,
I'll be OK. For now eat your eggs."
I ate my breakfast and eventually got in the car with Mum. She drove
me to school and dropped me at the gates.
"Bye Mom."
"Oh give me a kiss, Penny."
I did so. "You are a very naughty girl, Penny - but I love you."
"I'm sorry, Mum."
"So am I. Now go, before I get cross again."
The day was a bit of a blur. I had lessons, but I had a hard time
concentrating. And at recess, I went along with the others to the
classroom - Kylie looked very surprised to see Michelle there. Jackie,
Chloe, and Tasma, I think had already spoken to Michelle.
"What are you doing here?" Her voice was very flat.
"What do you think? I'm going to get the cane."
"What? That doesn't make any sense!"
"And yet..."
"Oh... well, I'm sorry you are going to get the cane. That's really unfair."
"Thank you."
Kylie looked out the window, away from Michelle.
"I'm sorry... about the other stuff too."
"Thank you."
"I mean it."
"I believe you."
Everyone went silent. As we waited. Chloe spoke.
"Did they tick the box on your forms? The one about your parents
reinforcing things?"
We all nodded - except for Michelle. "No, they let me off that bit.
What happened to you?"
Chloe spoke: "Well..." she flushed... "My father spanked me. I must be
the only fifteen year old in the country who still gets their bottom
smacked at home."
"Hardly!" I was speaking. "I got the spoon - and almost got the belt.
I think parents who send their kids to a school with the cane aren't
exactly up to date on modern child rearing!"
Jackie spoke quietly. "My parents just talked to me."
"What, a lecture?"
"No, they just talked."
Kylie was incensed. "Well, that's unfair. I'm grounded for three
months. God, I wish my parents smacked me."
"I wish mine didn't." This came from Tasma. "My parents are like
Penny's - I don't think our wooden spoon has ever been used for
cooking."
Discussion died down at that point and after a few minutes, Mr White,
our year coordinator came in with the female Deputy Principal.
"Right, girls, do you all have your letters?"
We indicated that we did. Mr White pointed at Jackie and Chloe. "You
two, bring them here."
They both walked up. He took the letters. "Right, you two can go.
Consider this to be your one and only warning."
"We're not getting caned?"
"Not this time."
"But that's not fair!" Chloe almost exploded.
"Would you rather be caned?"
"No, Sir, I mean... my father... well, he spanked me for this - and
Jackie got off with nothing!"
"Really?" Mr White looked at Jackie. "Is that the case?"
"I suppose."
He handed back her letter. "In that case, you see the Principal - and
I will be writing to your parents to remind them of the conditions of
enrolment in this school. Chloe, you can go." He cast his eyes among
us. "Did any of the rest of you get away with it? Besides you,
Michelle."
Kylie spoke quite quietly. "My parents didn't hit me, Sir."
"Did they punish you?"
"I'm grounded."
"That's all right then - it's up to them how they reinforce the
school's punishments." He got up and walked out the door, leaving the
Deputy Principal in the room.
"All right, Girls. I need to know - are any of you on your periods?"
Tasma raised her hand hesitantly.
"In that case, Tasma, when the Principal asks you whether you want to
be caned on your hand or your bottom, please say hand, to avoid
embarrassment. The rest of you will have the choice. See you all at
lunchtime."
And so at the start of lunchtime, we found ourselves lined up outside
the Principal's office. We were the only ones there to be caned that
day, and I assume the others felt as nervous as I did. None of us were
crying, but I was certainly close to it.
After only a minute or so, the Principal opened his door. Through the
door, I could see the Deputy was already present. He looked along our
line - and pointed at Michelle. She followed him in. I could hear much
of what was said.
"No matter how much you are bullied, Michelle, you can't go around
putting yourself in danger in the way you did. And we can't tolerate
stealing - I know you planned to give the money back, but that is what
taking without permission is. Now if you are bullied again, you should
tell us about it. If you don't do that, we can't help you - and I
don't want you to have to go through this again. Now - do you want to
be caned on the hand or on your bottom?"
"My bottom, Sir."
"Then bend over."
There was a pause of a few seconds and then there was a swish and a
crack and a cry of pain.
"Under the circumstances, I think that will do."
The door opened and Michelle stepped out rubbing her seat, with one
hand and her eyes with the other. The Principal pointed to Jackie. She
went in.
"All right, Jackie. I'm going to give you a choice. You can go home
this evening and see if your parents have decided to punish you - I
will phone them and explain the situation - or you may simply be caned
now."
"Caned now, please."
"All right. Jackie - I believe you only went along with what happened
because you were afraid. But fear is not an excuse for bullying. You
should have gone to Mrs Connery if there was no other way of avoiding
such a choice. But first of all, you should have just walked away."
"Yes, Sir."
"Do you want to be caned on the hand or the bottom?"
"On the hand, Sir."
"I see. Are you left handed or right handed?"
"Right handed, Sir."
"Please put out your left hand.... palm up. It's probably easier if
you close your eyes, Jackie."
A swish and a crack. And a squeal. And next to me, Tasma began crying.
"Hand back up, please. Keep your eyes closed. Good girl."
A second swish and another crack and a chocking coughing sound.
"Put out your right hand... that's right."
A third swish and and a third crack and a lot of crying.
"That's it. Come along."
The door opened again and Jackie came out crying and rubbing her hands
together. The Principal pointed at Tasma. She walked into the room
very slowly.
"Tell me, Tasma. Is popularity worth this?"
"No, Sir."
"Well, at least you've learned a valuable lesson from all of this
then. Your behaviour was awful on that camp. Bullying another girl to
make yourself look good - deplorable. Now do you want to be caned on
your hands or your bottom?"
"Hand, Sir."
"Put out your left hand. That's right. It's easier if you don't watch."
A loud, short swish and a loud crack of the cane. And a shriek of pain.
"Hand out again."
Almost instantly a second crack. And the sound of a thoroughly repentant girl.
"Other hand. Keep your eyes closed."
A crack. A shriek. And then almost instantly a second crack and a scream.
"It's over."
And again the door opened and Tasma came out her face screwed up with
pain, and her hands tucked in under her arm pits. The Principal
pointed at me, and I forced my legs to move.
As I entered the room, he took my note from me, and pointed to the
middle of his floor. The cane sat on his desk next to an open book,
with columns filled with handwritten text.
"This is the second time you've been in here, isn't it, Penny?"
"Yes, Sir."
"That isn't good, is it? And for bullying, which is even worse. Do you
know, Penny, that Mrs Quinn, Michelle's mother, phoned me this morning
to tell me that Michelle was upset that you were going to be caned,
because you were her friend?"
"No, Sir."
"Well, she did. And yet, on Friday, when I questioned you, you agreed
that you had teased Michelle, and that you'd called her a baby and
told her she should grow up? Is that true?"
"Yes, Sir."
"But she is your friend?"
"Yes, Sir."
"You teased your friend. Penny that doesn't make things better. I hope
you see that."
"I do, Sir."
"Do you want to be caned on the hand or the bottom?"
"The bottom, Sir."
"Then bend over."
I bent straight over to touch my toes. I heard him step around me and
I felt the cane placed across the seat of my skirt. Then I felt pain.
A line of pain. I stood up - and I was crying. The cane just touched
my bottom again and I bent over again - and there was a second line of
pain, even worse than the first. And again, I stood up - I just
couldn't help myself. I've read stories of people staying down when
they were caned - well, I couldn't manage that, and thank heavens,
they didn't expect me to - if like in some stories, I'd got extra
strokes for standing up, I'd probably still be there. Again the cane
touched my bottom - and again I bent over. I wanted to get this over
and done with as soon as possible. And again, the cane hit me and the
pain was awe inspiring. The wooden spoon had hurt me, but this was on
another plane. And again I stood up. He touched me with the cane
again, but I couldn't bend. He tapped me with it - nowhere near enough
to hurt, but enough that I felt it, and I forced myself down. As soon
as I was down, the cane hit again and I realised that I was yelling.
And standing upright and my hands were behind me and on my bottom as
if I could pull the pain away somehow.
"Please move your hands, Penny - if you wanted them caned, you could
have chosen that. I don't think you want both at once."
I moved my hands away, and realised they were shaking. I forced them
in front of me and slowly bent over. I felt the cane placed on the
seat of my skirt again and I... well, I whimpered. It sounded like a
ridiculous sound even to me, and I was embarrassed at making it.
Then the cane hit again and the pain was worse than ever. But...
also... inside me... I realised there was something else. Amidst all
the pain was the type of sensation that I got when I was
masturbating... not orgasm... just the very beginning of the
feelings... the first few times I masturbated I didn't climax - I'm
embarrassed to say that it took me a few attempts to reach that
stage... but the first time I did, a little before I did, I felt a
tension for a second and from that point felt that I'd finally got the
hang of it. That was felt again at this moment. Not orgasm, but the
promise of it. That's the best way I can describe it. I also had it
again later on, the first time a boy who knew roughly what he was
doing put his hand down there.
I didn't want another stroke, despite this feeling. If I'd been asked
if I wanted another stroke, I'd have said no. But I didn't have a
choice and so as the cane tapped me again, I bent over again. And when
it hit, there was the same tension amidst the searing agony.
But it was over. I was lead to the door and past Kylie. And I walked
gingerly up the corridor - and then much faster when I thought nobody
was looking into the toilets and into a cubicle where I dropped my
briefs and began masturbating as fast as I could trying to hold onto
the pain and the tension.
I realised there was crying coming from the next cubicle - Tasma was
in there - and I realised she could hear me and probably knew what I
was doing but I was beyond caring. And her crying actually made it
better.
I came - much more intensely than I ever had before. And then I began
crying even harder than I had before as well. It was the end of
lunchtime before I felt able to leave. And when I went back to class,
and sat down at my desk, I could feel all the marks - not from sitting
down so much, just I could still feel some pain from the cane and as I
sat through that afternoon, I was feeling constantly on the edge of...
well, sexual excitement. And it got a bit stronger everytime I looked
at one of the others. And god, it was embarrassing because I was
surrounded by boys in the class as well, and they kept looking at me
and that made it much worse.
At the end of the day, I went out the gates where Mum was waiting for
me. As I climbed into the car, she asked me.
"How many did you get?"
"Six."
"Six of the best. Quite an achievement."
I looked at her and she was smiling. It didn't seem like she was still angry.
When we got home and went through the door, she told me to come into
the kitchen. Sitting on the counter - where she normally smacked me -
was one of dad's thick leather belts. I stopped cold. Mum smiled.
"You're not getting it. I just want you to see it. Because I am
serious - if you get reported for bullying again, you will be belted.
Now - let me see the damage, the cane has done."
She made me lean across the counter - the way she did when she smacked
me - and lifted my skirt and pulled down my briefs. She drew in a deep
breath as she looked at my bottom - and I was concerned that somehow,
maybe, she could see I was still aroused. She was my mother after all
- an expert in me!
"Well, I'm sure that hurt, so we won't dwell on it anymore. Go and
have a shower, Darling."
I went up to the bathroom and stripped off - and stood looking at my
bottom in the mirror.
Half a dozen dark red lines, almost going to purple. I was shocked to
be honest. Shocked that this was legal. They looked a lot worse than
they felt. But they felt pretty bad.
But as I looked at them, and touched them and touched myself... I felt
pretty good.