I have had many dreams where mylife has been in danger - I have killed in self defence to find that the person I have killed is the wrong one.
I have also been salked in my dreams and the theme is also that those who have threatened me have mistaken me for someone else.
Another major theme is that I am under scrutiny from friends and family, in my dreams they seem to find me a disappointment or guilty of something.
Many of my dreams are very vivid and rather frightening.
Help if you can!!
you are able to ask the right questions when analysing others dreams....but on your own you are stumped, huh?
From what you wrote and my own personal understanding of these kinds of dreams, I would say that there are some fears regarding your identity, people being able to see who you really are, and becuase of the misconception/misidentification, you feel your safety is under threat, as the world is a dangerous place. You may feel annihilated/alienated by others and so feeling under threat. There also seems to be a huge guilty conscience, probably about nothing, just like I feel guilty when I see the cops and havent actually done anything ----
WHY WOULD YOU FEEL GUILTY/FEAR FOR YOUR LIFE -
either you have done something bad, and buried it down deep, or
this might stem from your position in the family hierarchy growing up --example - we had three squabbling kids - ratting each other out EVERY DAY leading to parental discipline, and I was always in trouble for stuff I didnt do (there was plenty of stuff I did do, hence the ability to feel guilty) but these days as an adult, my thing that gets me is INJUSTICES.
Maybe there is small stuff that you do, that is technically wrong, small stuff, that everyone does, (parking in the handicapped spot in a hurry?) but you have a highly developed sense of guilt and fear probably again due to family issues growing up.
Mistaken identity related to this stuff - maybe you feel that people do not really see the true you, honest, trustworthy, etc etc, and it bugs you, cos to be that person also means letting people in close to you, whereupon some will unfortunately take advantage?
It is hard to be a good person and still protect yourself against takers.
FYI - in my dreams, I had to kill a lot of people who threatened me while I waited for my US greencard to be processed. This mirrored the truth, lots of people offered to 'help' me, fix my greencard problem for something in return, and I had to just hide from them, as the law doesnt allow me to knock 'em off!!
killing in self-defence, maybe you are sick of defending your position in real life. Have you chosen an unusual life style?
Family dissappointment - I simply cant relate to this one, as with my own family, I am the most normal of the bunch - or what I'm saying is I spent a lot of money on a shrink to find out htat I'm ok, they're all crazy!
However, you still seek your family's approval, and maybe you havent met either their or your own expectations of yourself. RELAX - a very small percentage of people are famous, rich, etc, etc. There are a lot of happy people working in middle income jobs, and as long as you pay your own way and treat people decently and with respect, you have achieved plenty - unless there is something you really want to do, in which, case go after it and make yourself happy, irrespective of what others think you should do with your life.
I think you have been betrayed a few times. Now, you don't know who to trust. However, you may not have allowed yourself to confront the people who have betrayed you. Therefore, you act in self defense just to find out you killed the wrong person. Don't you see what that sounds like? It sounds like you have no one to turn to when you're afraid in real life, no one to corroborate your impressions with, no one to say "Hey, I'm afraid of this person and I think they mean to harm me. What do you think?" You are acting on insufficient information because there is apparently nothing but your own perceptions to go on. You sound like you feel very alone, so out of fear you act, realizing later you had insufficient information. If there were people in your life you trust to go to over serious matters, you would have had someone to turn to corroborate your suspicions. There is no one, so you act too suddenly, of course leaving you feeling guilty.
Furthermore, they let you act, letting you fall on your face and don't warn you ahead of time. Is there a co-worker who has withheld information you needed at work and some project you are working on has gone badly. Do you see how your dream can be trying to warn you about the jealously of others who can help you but won't?!!
Then you are being stalked and the stalker is stalking the wrong person. So you are being singled out for the kill. People you need and who can define your self image, blame you for things that are not your fault, at least you feel this way. They don't know who you really are. They need for you to be the heavy. It has nothing to do with you, it has everything to do with them.
Is any of this feeling on target? It is simply how it sounds to me. You do not sound like you are surrounded by friends or loving family. In your awake life you are probably penalized for independent thought. It sounds like you have to play a role that has no resemblance to who you actually are.
I would make new friends. Notice the people around you. Play close attention. Determine who you can and can't trust. Make a new healthy family from new friends. Risk losing the so-called love of current friends and family. Otherwise you will lose your soul and your sense of joy. You have a right to be seen for who you are. You have a right to have friendship and support. It sounds like you need to know who your true friends are. You might be in for some disillusionment. That's okay. You'll survive it and your new friendships will be formed and based on trust.
