last night more dreaming, dramatic like wuthering heights, mum was watching tv in front room, not bothered at all, I pointed out that the water had reached the window level, it was very sudsy against the windows and maybe even in the room, like the house was inside a washing machine, I got up and looked out the front window, trying to see when the tidal wave was coming (saw it in a dream as a kid and so conscious or not, I KNOW it is coming to that town eventually, dont know if it will be real or a Psychological thing for my whole family, but we appear to be goin under eventually...) Anyhow couldn't see the wave, but I think my brother was panicking so we went up to mum's bedroom and I showed him that although the windows were rickety, with holes, the water was not coming in and it would be ok. I could also see that this storm was passing with teh sun breaking thru the clouds on the right hand side of town. That was it.
Second time this week I dreamed with my Bro in it, like my dad, he never appears in my dreams, personal analysis of this dream tells me maybe he is now struggling with some aspects of his personality that were shaped by growing up in that house, and is maybe dealing with a personal emotional storm right now? Unfortunately, although I too lived there, and am an unusual person becuase of it, I can't even after yards of shrinkage unravel what the hell it was that my parents said to us that made us the difficult people we have become today. I like my brother, he is a funny guy, but when it comes down to it, each one of us kids is some kind of relationship octagon, without the little bits that allow you to connect in the usual way to another person.....and put us all in the same room, and it is like Hellraiser cubes.....
I think I will try to find an email for him, and ask him how he is doing. Maybe he has been talking to Mum too much, and got sucked into the brainwashing machine.
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