i was in my aunts house and all the doors were white, there was a white cat with black patches on an armchair behind me, i was swinging a black dog around playfully,but in my mind i was trying to stop the dog from touching the cat, all of a sudden i ran up stairs to get a baby out of the bedroom and away from his mum in case she started shouting because he had woken her up but as i got to the bedroom door iheard the baby laughing and realized that somehow he had already got downstairs, then i had a flash of my older cousin in the basement i dont know what he was doing.
Black and white, cat and dog, mother turning on Baby? I sort of got a feeling of opposites, or contrasts from your dreams. Like from one extreme to the other. Are you involved with any situation just now in your life where something is either right or wrong, you do or you don't something like that. Where you arent allowed to sit on the fence?
theres no situation that i can think of.i can see what your getting at though ,i suppose thats why i woke up so confused ,so many things were going on in the dream and they just diddent fit together, hmmm weird
i feel a bit like that now that i am living with my mum she is a very decisive person and i am very indisisive, (well it takes me long to decide on something and be sure of it), she can also hurt my feelings quite a lot so maybe im worried about her hurting me, because i have actually lived with my grand parents since i was 2 and now i am 17 im living with my mum,i am finding it to be quite a struggle because it is a big change for me and unfortunately as the circumstance goes i happen to be a taurus.
and dont let anyone push you around. making the right decision is hard, and sometimes hte right decision is jsut the right decision at the time...apparently, that is how we learn....you are a little bit reigned in firstly with grandparents influence, more old fahsioned upbringing kept you safe anyhow, but now your mum is buy bossing you a bit, however, 17 is too late to indoctrinate a child, you will abide by her rules but not necessarily her way of thinking - it is too late for that, you have already formed your basis for your decisions, and your process is just different to hers, thats all. I read a paragraph the other day about how we can change ourselves once we recognise wehre t we limit ourselves...something it takes a while to be aware of...I will try to find it again and gpost it for you It was revelationary for me.
Oh so YOU were the baby. does that bit make a bit more sense then? You want to protect yourself from your mum because it is a big change. The reason you were a baby, is because your reverting to youyr primal feelings if you know what I mean. the very core of your feelings. Your walking on eggshells afraid to upset your mum, because you dont know how she'll react. But remember you got downstairs fine and laughing, so I take that to mean keep holding on, things will work out okay
i think your both right.although its difficult i still manage to maintain my own sense of self. and i did realize that it is too late for my mum to adopt me into her way of thinking so she is going to have to realize that for herself.
good luck with getting your mum to understand that you have your own point of view, in UK kids are still a possession until age 18!!
though it might be easier becuase she has only just taken over role as mum so YOU can actually speak up and set teh boundaries somewhat...if she hasnt been a fulltime mum before, she doesnt really know hat to expect...so speak up...tell her she needs to be more flexible, if she will not, weigh up how long you need to live under those conditions....
