dreamed my mother was trying to get us both togeher in one room for something (MUM in UK< sis in OZ, me in US) and the disagreements started, then sister was kinda following me/bothring me so I started to hit her, and I was really punching her, every opportunity I got I smacked her good, there was tremendous anger inside me and I kept bahsing her any way I could, and even when we were tehn walking/hking thru a park where I was tight with the instructor, she was sorta trying to copy me so I kept bashing her, then myself and the leader were trying to cross a busy country rd, where you could not see the oncoming traffic around the turn, so I was kinda the lookout and it was also about choosing the right business (?) my sister was trying to see what I was doing...got to the other side, down a path, then high up on gravel above a quarry I was thinking about taking a high dive, sister right there, I was thinking of grabbing her by the throat under water if I got a chance....woke up. Pretty clear how I feel about this sister huh? (I dont trust her for S**t.)

maybe this is the hostility you hold deeply for your sister rearing its angry head, have you ever really told her how you feel about her and why, is your mother sill alive? if she is then this could be an expression of her anguish of the relationship between you and your sister,even if she isn't i think that this is your subconcious way of alerting you that now is the time to pull together.has this been the situation for a long time?or was there a constant conflict between you and your sister as in sibling rivalry ,maybe you spent too much or too little time together as children.

she talked me into going to Australia to visit and as a suprise for when my mum arrived....it took then less htan ten minutes to start putting me down adn talking to me like s**t....I ahd been gone ten years and beent hru years of therapy, and I kidded myself that it wasnt as bad as I remember, and that we would talk, and chat, and spend time like normal people...but they started trying to pick a fight with every sentence, and no-one had talked to me like that since I left home...mum also tried to physically push me around, and I have come too far to let that happen, it took all of my energy not to smack her....(I called my brother and he said he knew what I meant, and I should leave and go to the hostel)......after two days it was time to go...even my sister's babysitter asked me quietly 'what is wrong with them?' and she helped me by driving me to the hostel....it took me about six months to recover my self-calmness.

I dont really care what my mum's problems are, she is too old to change and although I call every couple of weeks, I usually ahve to hold the phone away as she says all thr right things to upset me.....my sister's last call shew as threateing to kill me....no point in talking to her....it is so complex I dont even know where it started, but it will finihs in murder if we live on the same continent...and apparently, I still hate them with a passion buil t in childhood....I underwent hypnosis and tried to remember what it was like as a kid, and all I said was 'I hate them' and then I couldnt go under any more....they made me so miserable...and crushed anyhopes I had....so apparently I like to reach out and smack her in a dream!!

I cant afford to pay to force them into therapy or address tehir own issues, so it is easier to live far way...with no family except myhusband and myself...which is fine. I think the dream tells me that sister is still curious about what I am doing with my life etc, nosy. but then if she became involved, she would find ways to undercut me and undermine me becuase apparently she was always jealous..(I didnt know this, one of her friends told me about eight years ago...)

Anyhow, there will be a psychological nuclear war when mum dies over the little bit of moeny to be divided...

i really hate my sister. oh well!! cost a lot of money to be able to express that!!! kinda funny...gawd, a lot of money...woulda bin cheaper to hire a hit man!!

i didnt realize it was like that ,i back you on your dicision ,its hard to face up to feelings but when its only you thats willing to face up its even harder. no one needs people putting them down so just hold your head high and only bend over to bite someone in your way.

its a long road and I've got me, and I am realising that is PLENTY...I am definately an army of one....not looking for a war...stillt rying to find a career!!