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this is a weird dream,i was looking for a grave...then i found it,and the person in there was a god(i belibe that on my dream)then i saw her face,and i think:is me,then i found this green book,with hebrean lenguaje,and then i found my self with a statue and the death monk apear and tell me that i stole his mision and i that's why i lose...then he try to take the statue and i tell him:take by tour self,but,he couldn't....and then i wake up...ok you better help me on this one cause i'm confused....

you see a god, that is buried in yourself, so you are finding your personal spirituality, you feel a struggle between good and evil, and are not sure which way to go, as most of life seems so depressing and wrong, yet you are supposed according to most religion to lead a pious life...something is struggling for your soul...I think you need to know from someone that is not religious that only you can own your soul, you can give it to a god, but dont have to, it is possible to live a good life without committing yourself wholly to god lke a nun, as long as you let your god (which can be yourself if U liek, this god is your personal strength) guide you. Ordinarily good people with good values dont even need to have it defined for them, but maybe events have caused you to question religion, and a religious lifestyle....those of us less surrounded by religious people dont struggle with it as much, cos being a good person is much simpler...you just treat people fairly, and give a little tiem to help people when you can, but only if you can take care of yourself first, which is not vanity, it is the human instinct to protect yourself...pick a good mate, have kids...protect and teach them....and life goes on. Make any sense?

i also now what god was(name)(but i dont want to say it).....if it helps i can say the name....