hi.
i have myself a little problem. one day when i was driving out in the country by where my grandparents used to live i started to get thoughts that weren't my own. it wasn't like i was listening it was like someone else was a part of me or working through me. anyway the words didn't make sense but i wrote them down. they went like this "there is a spirit that dwells within me, that calms the waters of Sai' oai. this spirit dwells within a heart Cold, ans empty too. it lives amoung others, others cold and others wrong, it will not sing the song, until the day of triumph is near." and there was another "o faceless soul, why do you hide, hide your heart, hide your wings, wings that could fly, wings that hold someone worth knowing. O empty soul, why do you run, what is there to run from, when you have so much, when you are so safe." and i know it's not some subconcious thoughts trying to emerge, in fact i know it has nothing to do with me at all. i just don't understand it .
wow, that's quite intense. You think it may be spirits your picking up on, or who are giving you these thoughts. The place you go when you got these, is there anywhere of spiritual significance nearby? Mayve there once was, you could try to find out, it might answer some of your questions.
did your grandpa fight in the war with vietnam , because the sai oai is an ancient vietnamese ground and this could be the spirit of the land that are in these thoughts, perhaps they have momentarily dwelled in you if either of your grandparents were around when this war was going on then i would suggest that they are repressing some feelings of deep emotional dwelling and feel a coldness towards themselves. in fact it could have bee around the house that you were going past at htat time.
I know what you mean, I get thoughts that aren't mine all the time. I would love to talk to you sometime and maybe help you figure out what yours mean. My email address is webcrawler20026@webtv.net
