Let me start by saying that until this dream started about a year ago, I've never had a nightmare - not even a bad dream. I'm 23, so mabey his in itself is a bit odd, but until this dream started I not only have never had a bad dream, I can always control them - except this one.
Each time theyre a bit different, but the themese are the same - I witness multiple nucular explosions and their corresponding mushroom clouds, and am filled with a sense of dread and disbelief that this could actually happen - but yet it is. I am always safe in some sort of shelter or another, usually a house above-ground. It is never the same structure twice, and never one I've actually seen before.
Its typically never in the same place - I've seen the destructions of San Francisco and New York, along with cities and towns I never recognize - but no matter where I am in the dream its always understood that I'm only seeing this slice of it, that the bombs are going off world-wide and the planet is destroyed of nearly all life.
I always seem to survive and end up helping others - usually by leading as many people as I can to safety before the fallout hits. Im never killed myself, but usually end up wishing I had been as time passes and the world is completely obliterated.
This dream never wakes me up (like the cold-sweat, shouting out, that type of thing), but is really disturbing the holy hell out of me. Like I said, it started about a year ago, and I seem to have it at least once a week. Its driving me up a wall because the last time I had a recurring dream I was like 3 years old - and this is the only dream I cant seem to contfrol. My dreams are always crystal-clear and I almost always remember them, and this one is the same.
is sometimes a dream we have that tells us about our inner selves.....for example I have a lot of internal personal strength, and know for a fact that in a crisis I can lead the way...sounds bigheaded, but I know that if it ever happens, that is my purpose. Otherwise why would I feel this way? well maybe a shrink would say it is some kind of self aggrandising thing, wanting to be important, maybe wanting to be appreciated and recognised for waht we have to offer...maybe we were ignored as kids...we want people to like us.
The rest of the dream is up for grabs, though nuclear holocaust is a possibility for all of us in our lifetimes...you see yourself as a survivor, and a leader. Who can say if you will have to opportunity to show your strengths and help others in your lifetime.
In my next life, I would like to be a cockroach, to survive said explosion!!!
I find your dreams to be very interesting... I have also been having reocurring dreams about nuclear war. Mine started with I was about 15, and I'm going 19 this April. Strangely enough, it only recently occured to me to search the net for people who have been having these kinds of dreams... You'd be surprised. You can read my dreams at cstumlinson.tripod.com if you're interested.
