hmmm, some bits i cant remember but i remember the dream being about saving the human race as we know it, and i play an important part, i'm the protecter to what seems to be the key of the human race, a dark mysterious looking man, he's the key. a bit matrixy i guess. This is what i remember, i'm in this room alone the dark man's not around but it is is room that i know. when the doors kicked in and three people walk in, 2 guys and a girl, one of the guys approach's me, he seems to be the one in charge, he pins me down asking questions, i tell him i wont tell him anything, he keeps me pinned down with one arm and holds his hand out to the girl, she hands him a seringe, i start to struggle with him lashing out with all my might, but he manages to get the needle in, this weird sensation runs through my body, i cant move, i'm paralysed. he starts to grope me a bit, just to show theres nothing i can do, he laughs then says to the others that they'll come back for me. somehow i'm suddenly laying at the bottom of the stairs, still paralysed, the dark mans there, he checks for my pulse, he knows what to do, he tells me he'll be back and climbs over me and heads upstairs. although i'm supposed to be his protecter, or one of, i dont believe i have much contact with him. i can feel the effect slowly wearing off, i'm starting to be able to move again. but 2 guys suddenly appear, there here for the key. they see me, jestering to each other what they should do with me, and laughing, they go to climb over me, i know that for the dark man to be caught would mean the end of civalization as we know it, and therefore that my life means very little and i have to do whatevers in my power to prevent it. as the first guy climbs over the second guy tells him to wait and that they should have there fun with me first, the guy agrees. he starts to have his wicked way with me while the other watches on in excitment. i play up to being paralysed, although i am still very spaced. i see the dark man at the top of the stairs and mouth the words to him to get out, the guys dont see him, there to busy abusing my body. He slowly and quietly walks back into the shadows and is gone, I think thats where i woke up. ?

AS tihs dream has hints of your subconscious desires together with a religious bent caused by childhood impressions of religion, sacrificing yourself for mankind and the greater good.

As some of this stuff is a matter of privacy, it is hard to know oneself fully, until we accept all sides of ourselves including our kinks, i am not going to tear it apart line by line, but I would ask you to read it back to yourself in a couple of months....with open eyes and ears as if it wer someone else dream, and make notes on your conclusions, to help yourself see yourself as a complete, complex, intuitive adult with full responsibility for yourself, and no guilt to be had.

Ther is also a little fear of/for the future in this dream. We all have this to some degree, and only become aware of it in down times. Mostly for example I am too busy fixin the presnt to worry about the future of mankind...


In conclusion, I would say tha you must value yourself a bit higher, deliberately, and when and if you go thru bad times (we all do at some point), it is absolutely not cos you deserve it, or becuase 'it balances the world' it is more a matter of 'shit can happen' but not as much when you value yourself highly and do not put yourself in anything less than quality situations and real quality friends and people with a moral code and good values. Just self protection from people who would take advantage.
good luck to you, Neesoj

apparently, dissociation, a splitting off of a part of the person can happen after childhood trauma, and so taht dark person could walk away to a safer place..while your body took the hit. I dont think this is you, but the last couple of sentences smacked of it.

think for moment, is jesus/the saviour/the dark man the only person you would put yourself at risk to protect??

i'm not actually religious, i dont disbelieve and am open to all views, but dont have belief in it either. i have to also add that the message titled second thought, although u felt proabaly wasnt me, i could actually relate to, i didnt have a clue what the dream could possibly mean as i usually try to figure it out myself, relating it to what is usually going on in my life at the time, never really thought about looking at it and relating it to my childhood, some other dreams yes possibly, but now that i'm looking at this dream having in mind what u said, i think i can actually make some sense out of it.x

cos i didnt want to make too specific a point out of it, even though this is an anonymous board. peace to you in your heart with whatever you learn about yourself.