anothr bunch of dreams...all in same sleep 4hrs
first i was in car with soon to be exhusband and he was driving along high road over cliffs with drops and his side was off the road, it seemed, and he seemed reckless.....then he drove to a cliff edge on a slope adn parked...and it seemed that if he put it in drive again we would go off the cliff....
then we were in a cove where they (teachers?) were encouraging little kids to jump off the rocks to get nito the water,and I was angry cos I knew the rocks were quite jagged adn it seemed like a stupid thing to do....husband was oblivious but we climbed up the cliff together anyway)
then we were sitting at the large conference table and there were a lot of my husbands women friends and he was saying that he had had our kitchen built 'for us' and i took him to task, loudly in front of everynoe pointing out that it was me that had done everything for him, and now he has the education the good job, he has walked away, and that if he had wanted to do something for 'us' he could have agreed to marriage counselling, instead of just walking away...leaving me totally up the creek...everynoe was a bit shocked...that I would pseak out, they were uncomfortable. (it is NOT unusual for me to speak out!!)
I was in kitchen at my motheres house, and two male colleagues from work were there, I went to hug one, I missed, and hugged the other, I didnt realise til I felt how uncomfortable he was......
Then my mother was very very angry with me, on behalf of my husband? (who did this mother represent??) and she had me on my back squeezing my throat, my arms werent long enough to hit her (she is psycho in UK) and I got to my feet (couldnt get that B off my neck! 20 yrs....) and I said "its not going to be like this" then I woke up.
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