I dreamed that a tidal wave was churning just outside the doorway of my mothers house, with my brother in it, and there was also a large dark chasm just before the doorway, which was maybe preventing this from pouring in there?
2nd Dream - saw my sister with her back turned on me standing outside of landlords house (the woman in dream had red purple hair so coulda bin my sis coulda bin landlords daughter, they dont always get along!)
2weeks later, 3rd - dreamed last night: My brother in trouble, in OZ, me not caring, looking from a distance, while wearing student clothes and attending university in UK...
4th dream - straight after that one - as I turned to face mirror? my front incisor tooth had a massive hole in it!! like crunch dental disaster!! bit rotted too!
Explanation? - 1st one says trouble is coming, either brother is having trouble or is troubled (most likely) becuase of our absolutely terrible and unfixable family dynamic. All centered around an evil old bag my mother. sorry but its true. I honestly dont know if she is calling and harrassing them cos I wont go near her or talk to her. I set myself free.
2bd drm -Now my sister was in contact, drunk calls from OZ to me and absolutely useless offers to help that are just words, nothing more.
3rd dream- brother will have problems, and I wont have to get involved or wont want to. (fair enough after all of the criticism heaped on me by these people that dont even know me yet think becuase they are related they can criticise criticise criticise...you honestly get more emotional support from a mars bar...) and I may be going back to school....
4th dream - how do I look?? will now google dreams of broken teeth...think it is something to do with not wanting to look bad etc....it seems that if I ever explain why i have decided taht I just DO NOT want to be near my family, the whole world is ready to criticise me - yet isnt it my choice?? freedom is hard won! I stopped talking to them 2 years ago, and they never noticed cos they never tried to keep in touch, or relationship build with me! it was all one way, and all I ever got back was criticism, so screw em. I was trapped in a foreign jail and DID NOT try to contact them cos I know what they are like, and when you are in hell, you DONT want my family to get involved, they are no use and down on the prisoner! (there were no charges, by the way...just a political prisoner, really stupid stuff by US Govt.)
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