"all this crap about "oh just be glad hes happy", honestly, feck that for an idea."
LOL Tris! That made me laugh out loud!! Totally know what you're getting at...
Yeh it's selfish.. but meh.
sigh and in my little world of patheticyness, dan's just gone to wales for 2 weeks.
had a funny little convo with him last night though... oh he's always so mean to me, lol. (in a jokey way.... at least, i hope! lol!!)
he's gone to a camp thing for 10-12 year plds, so i was like 'are you gonna go around on your knees pretending to be 11 yrs old on the first day?' and he was like, i'm a leader. and i was like 'oh, well you should still do that anyways, then on the second day stand up and be like 'i fooled you all! mwahahahahaha!!' He didn't seem to keen on the idea... LOL!
and then i broke him some truely shocking news about our mutually beloved Fairly Odd Parents (cosmo has a diff voice in some eps!! NOOOO!!!) and he was as shocked as I thought he would be. so i offered him a hug, which helped in the short time... but a few mins later it became clear that he was still in shock.
so LOL remember my thing about peppers being a symbol of love (coz of the boy who offered me them at new year?) - and so I posted my peppers emoticon and was like "i've heard peppers are good for shock victims" LOL. (i've not explained that peppers = love!) and he thought I was tres weird then! LOL!! So I was like 'no no, it's not weird it's... umm... caring... yes, caring'll do'
and then i can't remember if it was then, or after i'd said something else weird, but he was like 'ok... yes... i have to go now...' lol. And i was like, have i scared you off? . and he said yes. so i was like 'oh ok. byee ' and he was like 'no, not really i just have to sleep.' (he loveses my craziness really... and you know it!) And then in response to all my sad faces and trying to make him guilty he goes 'and shush you.' And then LOL he was like 'now, go and lust after me' so i was like 'LOL is that an order??' and he said 'ohh YES' lol.
and then we said our goodbyes again, and he "xxx"-ed and then the swine was like 'NO! IGNORE THE KISSES!" the bliddy swine!!!! trying to make me more normal by holding back the love? tsk, like that's gonna work!
tsk, and then his last words are "organise a join meet!!!!" (well, then a final 'adios' but still). Again: the bliddy swine!! Organise yer own you good-for-nothing join me celebrity! He's got way more power to pull the joinees into the meet than I do... tsk.
BUT! Oooo so I'm thinking... I'm going to a big meet in Edinburgh on the Sat 21st August... So I could arrange a meet up of some sort in York on the Friday before, stay at my brothers, then be in York ready to catch the train in the morning... maybe meaning i can get to Edin early enough to say hi to Rik before he heads down to Newcastle for the match.....
We're def having a York meet on the 27th... but if i don't arrange another one, that'll be the ONLY TIME I see dan before i go away probably! like HELL am i letting that be true!!!! shock
. and he said yes. so i was like 'oh ok. byee