guys....really really needin your support here... Somethings seriously wrong with Brook. I go to Portland last nite, and the boys arent there...odd. So I go to anglers tonite (but didnt go in as i was alone, just wanted to check all was ok) and its not. Brook wasnt there. Ryan was singing. I walked away seriously feeling like i was gonna throw up... like dry reching and stuff.... Cos see, the dj said "filling in" , so he hasnt left. I also realsie that means hes not like dead, or anything that major...but hmmmm. I saw him from the train in werribee yesterday, so i know hes not sick. one option left. Hurt. Bad hurt. Hurt is bad. I think im gonna cry. I couldnt go in and ask simon, cos if he told me something was wrong, id bawl! hmmmmm. im really worried.... and i really needed to talk, but they dont have msn on here do they feck it! and i have no cred.. and grrrr. decided a post would have to do.... Im so scared somethings really wrong....

now im in maccas crying... they keep playing Brook songs.....

**************************HUGS FOR TRISI!!!!**********************

seriously hun, I dunno what to say....... try and stay positive... I understand that's hard though.. I hope it all gets sorted ASAP and you find out whats going on.... i'm sure it's nowhere near as bad as anything that's running through your mind....







******HUGS****** again........ poor tris!!

Tris, I think u need to ask Simon about it. Coz it may be something simple, and you're making yourself feel sick imagining what it could be. It's better to know what's going on, so that you can deal with it.

Keep us posted, obviously I'm hoping that it's not awful news.

Love u,

Bec xxx

guys - ur gonna make me cry! But thankyou! I did email Simon about it, cos Id messaged him bout the mysterious disapearance on Fri...but never heard back.... So yeah... See, its bound to be nothing but hmmm... Its just, if it was like, he had some major commitment or something like that, then they woulda got Ryan to fill in on Friday too.... which means it was a sudden thing. Sudden things are always bad.... But in all this drama i forgot what would otherwise be a Major develoment on the 5th front. Was talkin to Ryan yesterday.... Mike's left now!

thatd be Ryan mcd i was talking to. And megamen ryan singing. Curses on common names!
And btw, Bec - THANK YOU FOR SMS!! Tho it did make me cry!

anddddddddddddd........ ok now ive forgotten.... oh yeah... um... is it wrong to have slept last night hugging my Brook photo? :S.... Only prob, it woke me up when it stuckinto me! But i had to... its a protection thing. I did similar after Bali... carried photos round EVERYWHERE - in my pocket, locket etc... Its kinda, if i keep them close, theyll be ok....

Awww Tris, I didn't mean to make ya cry!

Bec xxx

Tris, I don't think that's weird to sleep holding the pic of him...... I understand nods

Let us know how it goes...

Oh, and yay that you spoke to Riney!!

lol - I know u didnt bec! and its ok.... im just a little erm fragile (?) atm..... But bloody hell.. wish ppl would check and reply to their emails EVERYDAY!

Hope things are ok Tris.

Why's Mike left? is that why they is not playing~!?!??!!?!??!
After last nite .. even more wanting to see...

Lol - Bri, Ryan didnt really seem to know... so naturally I gave him shit about it being his fault everyone keeps leaving! As you do.

Arrggghhh... feeling ill again... STILL havent heard back from Simon... Im kinda nervous about hearing tho... scared its bad.... And as I said to Bec in my letta (and Bri, ull get me on this) the other thing that fully scares me is the way the boys were on Sat... reminded me of Mike when his mate was in the bike accident... all distant and stuff... all half hearted and "we shouldnt be here"..... eeeek..... also wouldnt surprise me if, if it was something bad, Simon didnt tell me.... cant see him WANTING to say something like that... its never fun telling anyone something bad has happened to someone else....

STILL havent bloody heard anything.... grrrr.... argh! Tryin to get myself into the "No News Is Good News" theory.... but hmmmm.... I know that aint always true...

YAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!! HES OK!!!! HES OK!!!!!!!!!!
LOL _ he was OS....cos u wouldnt mention that?!
BUT YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! will fill u in properly when i know more!

Excellent news Tris!

Bec xxx

YAY! I too am tres tres pleased for you Tris!!!

Glad he's ok! Hope he had fun O/S!

hehehe, i'm sitting here smiling now! So happy for you!