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"Perhaps this is some defense mechanism at work (just as my denial of my brother's death), and perhaps I have created my variation of religion to ease my own inevitable journey to death. I really don't know, but I admit I find comfort in it. "

By saying this, in fact, you admit that religion is a weakness of mankind. Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that we shouldn't use it as a "defense mechanism". But let me tell you a little story of my own. About two years ago i was almost killed by an electric shock. I don't remember exactly but i think i was shaking for about one minute. I was absolutely sure i was going to die. Not once during that time did I think of god. Fortunately i didn't die. If this would have happened to a religious man he would surely say that he had been saved by god, and maybe something like this would have changed his entire life. I resisted, and i didn't change my beliefs at all. I think that something like this would make me an atheist. I don't judge religious people because i think that religion is the least important. I have seen evil persons who were indeed religious and i have also seen very good and moral atheists. But still, i belive that religion is a human weekness just as love and pitty. It is this part of Nietzche's philosophy that i find true. But Nietzche says that we should give up all of these feelings, "weaknesses" in order to become "hyperborean", which i find false.