I'm so sorry

I've had two chemicals and they are so awful. You get your hopes up (even with a low initial beta, because everyone tells you all these stories about how in 15% of pregnancies they don't follow the beta "rules" and go on to deliver a healthy child) and then they are dashed.

The only thing that helped me get through my chemicals is: I can get pregnant! That is a big step. There are so many things that have to happen properly to get that BFP in the first place. Try, try to focus on that. Your body can get you to that stage and that is a really good thing.

I am convinced that it is just bad eggs. My plan is to, as Tracy says, "never leave a good egg unspermed" and try not to miss any opportunities.