Have you ever been in touch with JoJobee. I think she stills posts on the pg. after DE board.
http://www.network54.com/Forum/247611/ You could give her a shout out over there.
She is around your age and just had twins with DE, gosh, about 6 months ago? But I remember when she was posting here torn. She is such a sweetie and I had her blog bookmarked on another computer. Ah, just did a search over there and found some threads. Here is her blog
http://hopeforbaby.blogspot.com/
She is 28. I think it might help you to bounce your feelings off of her. Good luck with your decision.
xoxo, Tracy