I feel guilty...

I wanted to give my update because I know a lot of you have been following my saga. My response is not typical for a high fsh-er so makes me feel a little uncomfortable, if that makes sense. This is my 4th IVF... I have also had a pretty decent # at ER, but poor # to make it to ET. First IVF- antagonist w/ BCP priming I had 8 retrieved but a low E2 of 390, only one embryo make it to ET... BFN. Second IVF - MDL, 7 eggs retrieved, only one made it to ET... BFN. Third IVF-EPP (but my RE had little experience with this protocol so was a bit modified), 8 eggs retrieved, 3 made it to transfer... BFP, but m/c early.
So I am thrilled with my ER results and hoping with these numbers my chances of a few making it to ET is high, but given my past results I can only be cautiously optimistic. I obviously have some quality issues.