Depressing Second Opinion Appt yesterday- need support (loss/DE ment)

I was on depo provera and then Lybrel for birth control for a very long time because of those drugs, I did not have a period from 1995- the fall of 2009. Once my period resumed, at 35, I decided to begin TTC on my own with DS. Jan 2010, I clocked in with a d4 FSH of 27. I then had 4 miserable IUI cycles where my 7 dpo P4 was only 4. When my d4 FSH was rechecked in June 2010, it was 11.3 with e2 45. After these cycles, 7 dpo was always above 20 and on cycle 7, I conceived. Unfortunately, my baby girl had a fatal chromosomal disorder, and I lost her at 17wks in October. Jan 2011, I started trying again with no luck so far. The last 2 cycles my follicles fizzled out after stims so I am currently doing a natural cycle or 2 to give my body a break before going back to stims in the summer, hopefully. I just had IUI's on Mon and Tues of this week after getting +opk and a peak on the cle.arblue fert.lity monitor.

My present RE has been fairly supportive and is at the point where he just lets me do what I want, but I can tell that he's not very optimistic - to the point where I dread the beginning of each cycle. So, I decided to check out another RE to see if there was any other knowledge that could be offered. The new RE is one a friend of mine who had highish FSH (16) just bad boy/girl twins after IVF with this doctor. He was very thorough and did an ultrasound (3dpo, cd19), where we saw 5-6 antral follicles total for both sides. After reviewing everything, he basically told me my chances are dismal and he would recommend DE. Now, I know this is the canned answer and really I'm not surprised by it, but I found myself to be very depressed by it. I guess I was hoping (wrongly, I know) that he would say it was still worth a shot. So, I guess I'm looking for a little moral support if you all have any to spare.

Also, on the ultrasound he saw a tiny cyst or something in endometrium. Has anyone heard of this before? As far as I know, this was the first time something like that has been seen on my ultrasound, but his ultrasound machine seemed much better than my current RE's. He didn't know what to make of it.

thanks for listening ladies

p.s. he did recommend CoQ10 - says he puts it in his poor responder protocols. I told him I was taking it and he asked where I learned abou tit. - I think he said 300mg 2x a day.