So so so depressed!

Hi, All,

I haven't posted in a while I was hoping a miracle was going to happen and of course it didn't so here I am ...I have also tried to really keep it together these past few days and I can't tell you all how incredibly hard its been. I was clomid this cycle. There was no response then suddenly out of the blue ONE follicle grew to 17.5 so we triggered and did timed i/c.
7dpo we did a progesterone level and it came at 6.8- RE was happy I ovulated. Said to wait for 2ww....OMG was it hell..every twinge every goddamn symptom....so today at 14 dpo I did a POAS test...and a stark BFN. Supposed to go in for a blood test today...whats the point? I feel like calling and saying I already know the result.

I go to a shrink to deal with this stuff and she says infertility is as bad a disease as cancer. 1.5 yrs ago when we started this i didn't dream it would be so bad and here i am today holding a negative poas test and there isn't even a tear left to shed????

why all this unfairness? I am sorry i am so down today...I usually try to be positive on this board but one more cycle one more negative how can one not be dejected???????

gisg