I know people have said my age and numbers don't seem that bad, but we just had our first appointment with an RE, and now I have the statement that I have only a 1-3% chance of conceiving and a high likelihood of not making it through the first trimester (if I conceive) ringing over and over in my head.
My numbers again are:
FSH 11.1 and 12.6
Rapid Estradiol 33
Progesterone 10 (was told this was normal)
I've never had a positive HPT
I've never had an AFC, but the RE is planning to do one and said she guesses I will only have five follicles in each ovary (which during the meeting did not sound good). There were discussions of donor eggs again. We have no insurance coverage for IVF (although it didn't seem like that mattered since my chances with IVF were less than 10% anyway). She talked about starting with 100mg of Clomid, but I thought I heard Clomid can make FSH worse? I've been doing acupuncture for the past month and using Chinese herbs twice a day (as well as following what my acupuncturist said regarding diet changes including drinking soy milk, eating spinach, pumpkin seeds, yams,...) but now am being told the Chinese herbs are not recommended, nor is the soy. So I feel totally confused about what I'm supposed to be doing. I feel like the message I got this morning was (though these were not the direct words) There is very little chance this will work, but we will certainly give it a shot. I appreciate that they will work with us and that they were supportive in some ways, but I guess I thought the appointment was going to be a little more uplifting than that. The RE was nice and encouraged me to stay focused on believing this will work, but all the while giving me all the statistics that say it's verrrry unlikely. ?? That was confusing. I'm also having trouble getting the picture of the graph out of my head, which showed my numbers indicate I'm more in the category of someone who is 44 or >44 years old, with regard to egg quality (which is where the 1-3% chance came from). So, because I'm in the DOR category, they also recommended we do genetic testing for Fragile X. This reallly sucks. I'm trying not to let this drag me into a black hole, but it feels again like someone just put about 50 more nails in the coffin that says we will never get pregnant or make it to a live birth.