Mrs M, thank you for writing back.
I'm not going to not temp anymore, you're right...all it does is make me nuts. I never did every single time I got PG, this is just something "new" that I've done for the past 3 cycles and honestly whats the point anyway if Im going to get an u/s to tell me I ovulated, you're right.
The temps dont tell you when, they confirm you DID O anyway so- Im done. I had a feeling no PG would mean the temps go way down. It just makes sense. I didnt take any p4 today. 2 FRERS (one last night) both strong negative- I just want damn AF at this point. Due tomorrow. Happy freakin Valentines Day.
I wish I could get immune testing. C heck told me its only available in Mexico and thats not happening. Just not. Everything else came back normal. I'm scared. I'm very upset about my age, its hard to explain, most would say "well you KNEW you were 39 and going to turn 40 this year" but I guess I just flipped out the other day when I crossed the 1/2 birthday mark, I feel like my feet are krazy glued to the ground and life is passing by me and everyone is getting their BFP but me. 5 cycles since my last m/c, no PG- maybe I have time and I know that IVF doesnt guarantee no miss....but Id rather move to IVF sooner than later. Natural cycles are great even if you're 36, 37, but when you are 6 months shy of 40 you cant do natural cycles very long.. I think. I dont know. I dont know anything anymore. A big part of me is just feeling this is N EVER going to happen. I hate being negative but it's getting harder and harder to envision it. I am happy for everyone who gets their bfp but I admit, sometimes its just like "when is it going to be MY turn" ya know? The not knowing what the future holds is hard. Thanks for listening and for validating, sometimes you just want someone to validate you and who understands- I am also very type A I want everything yesterday...it's just difficult to sit too long with natural cycles...