Even despite the warning and the heads up that it was a story of inspiration...you still looked!!
You know what I was doing when I was DONE? I wasn't looking at stories of OE successes. I was looking at donor profiles online.
Believe me, you'll know when you're ready to take that leap. You might be screaming scared shitless the whole way, but when you're ready, that fear will be "less fear" than what you feel with the unknown of OE.
I knew you'd be up reading tonight so that's why I hung around to see your post. I know how you're feeling. It's such a massive weight and burden of emotions. I'm sending you a really big hug.
P.S. - I saw your post that you have a new kitty. Go curl up with that little Grady ball and let him love you with tons of kisses and purrs.