Bad news

Writing on iPhone in car sorry for typos.
Did the sono saline. The most painful procedure for me. I had no pain for the h s g this was excruciating
Fibroid is taking up half the cavity of my uterus. She told me it has to come out. She didn't think it caused my miscarriage but she said if I were to get pregnant with it in there she didn't think I would be able to sustain a pregnancy. The risk of keeping it in there is higher than scar tissue. Of course I started crying. She advised me to do surgery locally on new york since if I have complications it would be better to be close to my dr rather than have her do it and be 2 hrs away. I was praying she would say dont worry leave it but guess its better to know. I feel like I've been hit by a truck. I know some will say its not a big deal but it doesn't feel like that now. I'm cd 8 another month of not trying and have to find a dr to do it. I hope I can get it done as fast as I can. Now. Scheduled day 10 blood and ultrasound at my local places should I still just go so they can at least see the situation in there? Or no? The procedure I'm having would be a hysteroscopic myomevtomy. iPhone can't spell that. Sorry. This sucks when when when Does it end???? She said it could be an hour surgery or 5 hrs sometimes it's worse when you go in there she also said depending if fibroid was ceiling to floor she would put a stent in to avoid scar tissue and hold up the uterus. This sounds so f-in scary to me and dangerous