so- went to my OB GYN today. called c ooper this morning to ask them to fax yesterdays findings to my dr, so she could have it to reference. said they would and THEY NEVER DID. DH called them from my drs office and they had it refaxed in 2 minutes.
(let me say that it was SO hard sitting in that OBGYN office today filled with heavily pregnant women. it was like taking bullets. the office was packed with them. i'd forgotten what it's like to see so many PG women, since you dont see much of that in an RE office. painful and since my due date was to be 3/26, one month away...i had a rough time in there today. imagining what should have been...)
anyway, it was nice to see my dr again since i have been with REs and havent seen her since the summer.
she took a look at me and i sensed she wanted to say something to me. she was hesitant. and then she did-
she told me that SHE had the same exact thing as me. same spot, same situation- compressing on the lining and changing the shape of the ute. and she had it removed. she told me it absolutely does have to come out because its too risky to keep it in for a pg. she was in complete agreement with dr b rasile on that. she said she does many of these and it will be okay. she said going through the vag should do it and it will be worse than a d+c but not as bad as a lap. she's going to try to get me in within the next 2 weeks.
i think hearing that she went through this around thanksgiving and then in january went on to conceive her second child..really set my mind at ease. it was so nice of her to tell me something so personal, too. i adore her.
we had a convo about me going to NJ to do the monitoring with dr c. she told me not to do the TI forever and to have a deadline is good (which i knew)...but we were talking and she thought it would still be a good idea for me to go tomorrow for blood and u/s to see where i am at for day 10- just to have the levels, etc.
so, i get home, call c ooper to have them fax b/w and u/s orders to the appropo places
10 minutes later i get a nasty callback from the nurse who said "im not faxing your orders over, you have a fibroid that needs to come out, youre not cycling" and hung up. WOW. bad taste in my mouth. i still have my callback next week with dr c. so ill discuss things with him.
i think- i HOPE- im doing the right thing. i hate second guessing- but i always do. just praying hard i will have this done right away and it will go flawlessly. and then by the grace of god, go on to have a successful pg.
thanks to everyone for all the words of encouragement yesterday and today. they helped me keep it together and feel better about this whole nightmare.