Sorry to be anon. when I was eight months pregnant with DE twins and in hopital my thirty year old husband was diagnosed with stage three cancer. We had premmies ,and cancer and chemotherapy and twins for the first eight months of my babies lives. I thought there is no god how am I going to do this if my husband does not survive. Three years later my husband is alive and we are taking our kids to Disneyland. Feeling hopeless is awful I know I felt that way hope thinks improve soon.