Hi there, I have to echo the sentiments of the others and say that things really will get better! There is no way this terrible luck you're having can continue. I don't know why some people are tested so very much more than others; it's one of the great mysteries of life imho. I have felt everything you're feeling right now when one thing after another went terribly wrong for years (not that I'm saying this will go on for years for you!), and things really did turn around for my DH and I. Hang in there and just take one moment at a time during these awful periods. I wish I could tell you when, but things will turn around for you and your DH too!